I decided to start therapy again. I had CBT for 18 months 2 years ago after my brother attacked me. Things got much better then a year ago I started feeling chroniaclly fatigued, weak and my anxiety and agoraphobia crept up on me. Then in October my son was being bullied, had panic attacks daily and felt suicidal. My world fell apart and it was during this time my physical symptoms of fatigue and weakness worsened. GP blamed the trauma of seeing my son ill.
I was talking to my new therapist today and she says I have definitely suffered PTSD and it's triggered alot of anxiety. I had a tough childhood, then in later life more anxiety due to my extended family being so toxic and violent. I was always just told I had general anxiety disorder and nothing was explained to me about why I feel like this every day. Now I know. My therapist today said the constant fight or flight/anxiety has a toxic effect on the body and could well have triggered alot of my health issues, especially the chronic fatigue. It's made me think, could it have caused or at least accelerated the thyroid issues? My TSH was 4.9 In January 2013 (range 0.35-5.5 on NHS) and FT4 was 11. Then in August last year my TSH was 5.35 and FT4 10.2. In January this year I went private as my GP kept saying my thyroid was fine. TSH was 6.54 (0.2704.2) and FT4 14.8. March 7.51 FT4 15.8. May TSH 9.28 and FT4 15.7. I am now finally on thyroxine and due a blood test next week.
My mother is hypothyroid, no hashimotos for her or myself. So could stress have maybe caused this? I have been struggling with anxiety and agoraphobia for 4 years, I don't have panic attacks but general anxiety all day. It just made me wonder today. I can't believe how much damage my family have done to my life. It's no wonder I have had to cut them all out of my life as they have damaged myself and my little family so much. Everyone around me all my life told me how toxic they were, I just wish I had listened. Trying not to feel like a victim but when you do therapy it opens up so much you didn't realise had effected you. Wow!