Well today I spoke to my nice GP. He is the GP that came out to see me November and December when my fatigue became crippling along with the ground moving feeling as I walked.7
I told him my fatigue has got worse recently, and the ground moving feeling everytime I walk is no better and I always feel very weak in my thighs. Maybe anxiety but it has made me a recluse. My anxiety is back which I had got over. I was honest crying, told him I am afraid to even walk around my house I get panic attacks everytime the ground moves or I feel i am about to pass out. I told him my BP is recently a little low too, well low for me 100/70. Usually around 110 or above. Better than high I know
I was honest and said the GP that called 2 weeks ago was rude and branded me with CFS and basically said he had no idea what to do with people like me. My GP said it could well be CFS but he didn't want to label me with that. I told him I had my blue horizon test done, he had no idea so had the GP i wrote to not bothered to scan in my results I sent him? I told him my results and he was shocked. He said 'Julie your TSH is over double what it was in December and its now over the NHS range too'. I said 'yes it was 5.35 in August, 2.96 December but I was told it should be done first thing fasted so I did it before 8am and it was 6.54 3 weeks ago'. He said 'right ok'. I told him the BH GP had commented on it saying it could be raised due to other non thyroid illness or I could be subclinical hypothyroid and he recommended a test in 3 months time, unless symptomatic and then it should be in 2 months time. My GP said 'yes, ok'. He then asked if he could come out to see me THursday, he said 'We can have a chat and make a plan together'. Not sure what that means but I am hoping he is realising just how much I am struggling. I am worried I will have a panic attack in front of him. Right now i am highly anxious because of how ill I feel and I rarely go out and see people so Thursday will be so hard having him here. I am afraid he will think I am an anxious mess and lock me up lol! My husband will be here. I know i have to do this because I cannot carry on feeling so unwell but as they weeks have gone by I am becoming more anxious. It's been 11 weeks since the floor started moving as I walked and the leg weakness, and the fatigue just gets worse and worse every week. I know my anxiety won't be helping but I am just afraid what's wrong with me.
My T4 and T3 are in range so I am worrying what he will say. The BH GP did suggest non thyroid illness affecting my TSH but what could he have meant by that?
I attach my latest BH results. Fingers crossed I get somewhere on Thursday. I am dreading it. I got all hot and anxious just on the phone to my GP. Why is my anxiety so bad? I was agoraphobic 3 years ago for a few months when my anxiety disorder first began but the last 18 months i could go to appointments again and would never call a GP out to my house. Now I am worse than ever, all because of this damn floor moving and loss of confidence.
Thank you all for your continued support.