Hello lovely people
Strange title for my questions but Ive exhausted titles just lately and nothing seems appropriate!
So….added in some T3 (10mcg) on Friday to my normal 125mcg of T4, expected to feel amazing by now, guess what I don't! I know its early days but how come some people say that they felt the effects of the T3 almost immediately?
Im off on holiday next week, had to start thinking about the dreading packing last night (it takes me a week to pack as I can't get my head around it all in one go). I had every item out of my wardrobe I think trying to find items that fit. I am bloated and no matter what I put on, I hate the way I look. It ended in tears.
Last night in bed, I awoke with pains in my toes, every time I so much as twitch them, they hurt. This morning, I can barely walk on my feet and then I remembered I wore a "slight" heel yesterday and i think this has hurt my feet (how ridiculous). I also awoke with nausea in the night, I think I may be ovulating and as I have fibroids, I wonder if this combined with the thyroid medication could cause nausea? Does anyone feel worse when they are ovulating or when they menstruate? I know I do. Why? Is it a hormone rush?? I am 44 by the way. Menopause??
Today Im exhausted. Im at work and would do anything to go home right now, put on my pj's and slouch. A Witney Houston song came on the radio and I burst out crying. My feet ache and I have muscle weakness in my arms today, an itchy feeling in my throat, pains come and go in my bones, Im sighing all the time I am actually making myself depressed let alone anyone around me having to constantly hear me sighing. I have a sort of pin prick pain coming and going quite often in my back on both sides, is this my ovaries??
Yesterday I not sure which planet I was on but no matter what people said to me I just didn't seem to be able to tune into them. Driving was a nightmare as I just didn't seem to be able to focus and concentrate.
Ive struggled for 3 - 4 years with this hypothyroidism (2 - 3 years undiagnosed, a year on medication) and Im beginning to want to give up fighting to feel well. Don't worry, Im not talking about doing something stupid but I think its the hope that each time you try something different (T3 this time), you are going to feel amazing and then when you don't, it sends me on a downer. I feel like giving up trying to feel 100% and just deal with the way I am, give up work, stay inside and avoid people and rest when Im having a bad day instead of pushing myself day in day out to live a normal life. Its the pushing myself each day that wears me out and gets me down because I feel every day is a fight.
The thing is, I read other peoples stories and some seem so much worse than me, some HAVE given up work as they couldn't cope, some seem in so much pain and therefore I question whether I am really that bad?? I still battle on every day and I guess I think that if I can do that then I can't be that bad.
Ive got Vit D deficiency, taking tablets, Ive got iron deficiency, taking tablets, my blood tests reveal certain things that point to anaemia, will these things EVER be corrected?? How bloody long does it take because you would think that a year of being treated should have made a difference wouldn't you?!! I then start wondering whether all of this is hypothyroidism, do I have fibromyalgia, do I have pernicious anaemia as once thought but never pursued, is there something else because Im just not being corrected with what I am currently doing. Be patient I hear you say, Im struggling to be patient now, Ive felt crap for years, Im running out of patience!!
I know how many of you feel like I do, I just need to hear how you deal with this. What about your partners? My husband has had the patience of a saint with me, Im so grateful to him but equally, I still snap at him, I still bawl my eyes out regularly in front of him, I still moan Im fat every single day of my life and I still ask him why he is still with me as I dont actually recognise myself anymore (image and personality) and really wonder if he has ever felt like walking. Does anyone feel the same?
Please reply with your story, desperate to hear how you cope and what you think