I am 69 years. I have been a Midwife prior to retirement which doesn't really suit me, I love to care but somehow cannot care about myself, now I have the time I don't know - how to ? For me I procrastinate ! My last 20 years I thought would be mine were not therefore I want the next 20 years to be mine- for sure !! I have given myself till my next birthday to be the best of me I can be, I am prepared to do all I can to achieve this, but it is a very lonely place, I would love company. I have given me a problem, as I have grown over-weight in the last three years I have refused to buy myself appropriate clothes to go to social places or partake in hobbies I enjoy - because I am not worthy, I do not deserve them therefore not having appropriate clothes I cannot go out to meet people, so I remain alone which is foreign to me as I am a people-person. I have no photo, I will not allow my picture to be taken. Grrr !