Happy birthday

[kduck]

Today is very emotional to me, my daughter has turned 13. I'm so happy to be here to watch her turn 13. I love my children so much. I'm fighting to be here, I have so much to teach them . I'm fighting what's in my mind andI'm fighting the devil. I cry at times when I look at them. I have always be the strong one but sometime I just want to cry out, but I don't want them to see me cry. God knows my heart and he knows my pain. I want to fight for my children, I want to watch them grow up and become the best they can. I'm so sorry for my out cry. God bless us all!

[nstonerocks]

These kinds of milestones, especially involving our kids, are very emotion so go somewhere private and have a good cry. When I was first diagnosed my oncologist told me about a patient with younger kids who just wanted to see them grow up. That was over 10 years ago. Now she travels a lot. That was before Ibrance and all the other newer drugs. Look forward. After all you have been through you know how to really be present for them. Find ways to calm and center yourself and to give you the stamina to ride this crazy train. Congratulations on your daughter becoming a teenager! She is blessed to have you as her mom. 💕

[kduck in reply to nstonerocks]

Thank you so much

[Hidden]

We have to “vent” somehow and someway. I find any milestone very emotional, thinking back on others and wondering about more. Living for the day is what we have to try and do.

[SeattleMom]

Hello, Kduck!

Your post made me weepy, too! Don’t ever apologize for expressing the feelings we all know so well! You are among such a great group of compassionate, empathetic women (and a few men) on the same journey. All of us have the same moments of fear, grief, anger, and despair 😩.

But never lose HOPE!! Your daughter is worth it. GOD BLESS YOU!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻❤️❤️

[kduck in reply to SeattleMom]

Thank you so much! I'm going to keep fighting and never lose hope for my children.

[Epinto]

Understand your feelings as we all share the same hopes and fears! Let’s not live life thinking it is our last day because No one, cancer or no cancer can predict the future. Enjoy the birthday celebration and the days ahead!

[kduck in reply to Epinto]

Thank you

[My3girls]

I'm right there with you my baby girl just turned 13 in June. She was 9 when i was first diagnosed and i wasnt sure i would would be here and that terrified me, but im still here. Its ok to cry, its ok to be mad at the hand we've been delt. Just do the best you can and keep fighting. Wishing you and your daughter many more Happy Birthdays.

[kduck in reply to My3girls]

Thank you so much! You give me hope, you have 4 yrs in. I'm doing my best to keep my mind off of cancer and living one day at a time. I'm going to fight until there is a cure in the near future. I also have a 8 yr old son. I was dx in Nov with mbc, I just wanted to run and hide but I chose to fight for my 2 children. I never thought I could have bc no one in my family has cancer. God bless you!

[mariootsi]

God Bless you!

[RLN-overcomer]

I pray God will give you many more years of milestone celebrations with your children, and your loved ones. Keep the faith.Dr/God is in charge. XoXoXoXo