Merry Christmas all,
I have been DA-free for 3 months now, and I don’t see much progress in my life quality. I am still stuck at home most of the time. I am exhausted, depressed. I suffer from endless RLS during day. I have kind of electrical jolts in the low back that make my low body shiver. I sleep well, thanks to clonazepan. In case of strong crisis, I can take up to 3 clonazepan to knock me down. My current medication is 600mg pregabalin, 200mg tramadol ER, bisoprolol 1.25mg, Venlafaxine 37.5 mg, clonazepan 0.5 mg before bed (and up to 1.5 mg in case of strong crisis).
In my worst times, it is hard for me to do anything else than stay in bed and take clonazepan to sleep.
I barely see my kids and I don’t see my colleagues anymore, except in videoconference. I can work 2-3 hrs per day top.
I think a lot about putting an end to my misery, as this is no life, not even for an animal.
I took pramipexole 0.19 and then 0.38 mg from 2021 to 2022, and then Mirapexin ER 0.26 mg in 2023. My initial RLS was mild. I suffered from augmentation after about 6 months under DAs. My DA withdrawal was a total failure. I was put under Neupro 2mg after an abrupt stop of Mirapexin. And my covert narcissist partner abused me and abandoned me (twice) while pushing me to suicide during my Neupro tapering off, which caused me a PTSD. Now she has blocked me for 5 months.
My ferritin is very high, thanks to two infusions.
Any advice is welcome.
Cheers
Mikatrap