My favorite time of night....

[american_army_guy]

Laying here, letting my thoughts flow off my mind in the dark with cool air blowing on my face.  For this moment I can feel like my old self, like the normal me, I am happy but sad because I know in the morning I will have to wake up and fight to get to this moment again.  How I love this moment tho.   I am going to enjoy it Just a little bit longer...  Wish it could last....  Good night friends.

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Nice👍🏻  You can revisit those thoughts again🕊

[Maddyg]

Lovely, stay strong, one day at a time  

[jessrudd12 7 MONTH WINNER]

Stay strong, it gets easier, promise  

[dunn 15 Month Winner]

Hang in there and thanks for sharing!

[paulacraig 42 months 18 Months Winner]

Dont give up, you will get there

[31m3aR 1 YEAR WINNER]

Keep going I know the feeling am four weeks free and breath a struggle look at droopyj s article re breathing n tho you may not feel like it do get as much exercise as you're able for in - it really helps- best of luck 

[american_army_guy 6 Weeks Winner]

Yea, my stomach is turning today.....  Ate something and bam, stomach is a wreck.  Hoping it stops.  Laying down early tonight.  

[jljl16 27 Months Winner]

I'm at 16 weeks and feeling my old self now which is great, keep going, it's worth it...

[american_army_guy 6 Weeks Winner]

Thanks you all, you all are awesome and give me something to look forward to and to talk to.

So I'm in the ER my sister had Her gaulbladder rupture.  Anxiety is in high gear, hate hospitals after Iraq but being strong for her....  I want to cry but I can't do that here I'm taking really tiny breaths.....  I'm also worried about my sister.  I'm trying to stay calm you all. Trying my chest is so tense.

My hand keeps shaking Like tom hanks in the movie saving private ryan have to keep fixing this 

Doctor asked me if I was ok and he patted me on the shoulder, I think he knows.

I want to smoke so bad right now guys.  Help me....  I gotta be strong