This is SO HARD!

How long does this anger rage sadness pointlessness anxiety tears go on for???? I truly thought I would start seeing the light by now? I only have moments of relief. I have never cried so much I have never been this person who loses the plot at the slightest thing... I have never yelled at people for driving too slow, too fast too in my way!! Has anyone else had this go on for what feels like a life time... It's only 3.5 weeks I know, but I'm finding it sooooo difficult to agree to spending the rest of my life in this sad rage full place... I really DONT want to smoke those stinking horrible poisonous sticks of hell but I don't want this either!! :-((( sorry for my negativity! Just trying to find the lighthouse!

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  • Hi jaglan πŸ˜€

    Well done on keeping your quit going πŸ‘

    Emjay posted about understanding the feel good chemicals within your brain, I think it's a pinned post 😊 have p look it may help you πŸ˜ƒ

    Breathing exercises may also help and think the lovely glolin put a post up about them πŸ˜€

    It does get easier I promise 😊 don't see it as giving up something see it as gaining your life back

    Stay strong you can do this πŸ˜ƒπŸ˜ƒ


  • Thank you shanti.,,, it's so unbelievably difficult. It helps to scream out on here and to get a response is the lighthouse I'm looking for ! It's the fact that you guys have been there b4 me x

  • Hiya jaglan, please don't think long term right now, just one day at a time is easier to get through. It's probably one of the hardest things you'll ever do, it will be get easier I promise. The first few weeks are tough, I remember it well😩 there's light at the end of that dark tunnel though. Keep going and follow the light, visualize it shining bright. Let go of your negative thoughts and focus on the positives. You'll think I'm trying to hypnotize youπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚ seriously though you are gaining more and more as each day passes. We are learning a new skill and learning anything new takes repetition. Every day you're learning how to do things differently. Be patient with yourself and proud of how far you've come on your quit journey. Have a read of others quit journeys to give you some inspiration, this really helped me and hope it will do the same for you😊x

  • Hey briar ! Yet again you made me smile... To know that yr 14months ahead of me helps ..... To know that you know how #%^*%^Β₯€€$* awful this part of the journey is.... To know that you got through without being arrested or placed in a snug fitting white jacket and booked in to a padded cell for yours and others safety is a beacon for sure! It's just sooooooooooo mind bogglingly crazy the roller coaster of emotions a horror that terrible white stick has /can cause .... I really don't want to smoke (even the word smoke sounds stupid! What am I? A side of salmon or kipper??) but mr bloody Nic is putting up a huge fight! Wish he'd go extinguish himself from my mind! Thanks for yr support! It really is appreciated x

  • You've made me laughπŸ‘ my hubby was supposed to quit with me but that didn't happen, first of all I was so jealous coz I wanted to, then came anger (angry with him, angry at him) murder was a thought but I'm a bit of a cowardπŸ˜‚ truth is I'm soooo damn glad I stuck it out as I'm now free from those dirty smelly disgusting things and I now hate the smell of them😑 you will too😊x

  • I CAnT WaiT !!!!! I want to accidentally on purpose squirt my water bottle over a smoker walking in front of me!!! I can't stand the thought of having a mental breakdown in the middle of richmond all because it was someone else's smoke I got to inhale and spark off a mr Nic seven hour craving and psychopathic meltdown just because I didn't get to smoke it myself! Ah well, nearly 4 weeks.. But yr right... I will try and stay in a one day at a time mode x

  • I used to hold my breathe so I couldn't smell them when I walked by people smoking, I kid you NOT as this is the truth coz I couldn't trust myself to even sniff smoke in case it made me want one, so who's the psychopath now!!!! Oh yeah that's me😳 sounds funny now in hindsight but it wasn't at the time😟 I'm telling you this so you'll see you're not going crazy.................yet😈x

  • Briar, your not crazy in the least gal, just flippin maddddddd :P :D :D :D xxxxx

  • LMAO it takes one to know one πŸ˜œπŸ˜‚x

  • Hmmmmm, so your flippin sayin am maddddddd tooooo then :o :P :P :D :D xx

  • YeppppπŸ™ŠπŸ˜x

  • OMG I do exactly that... When I leave asda or tesco... You know yr gonna get hit by it!!!!

  • Hi ya Jaglan :) a massive well done to you for reaching 3.5 weeks quit and cold turkey toooo :) :) I honestly take my hat off to you :) :)

    I see you've had some great help from some of our lovely members :) Jaglan, we are all made different :o soo it takes some of us longer to get rid of that mr flippin nic :P :P

    Jaglan, would you like to go through this again :o I suspect not :) Mr nic knows exactly when to flippin strike !!!!!!! and he does, fast and hard !!!!! he knows your on a downer, so thats why he's getting at you sooo much at the moment :o

    Please try to change you'r thought pattern :) STUFF flippin mr nic, THINK about yourself and what you want in life :) :)

    Jaglan, you dont want mr nic anymore :) you dont flippin need mr nic anymore :) mr nic is DEAD !! , sooo, all you got to do is bury him :) :) and bury him flippin deeeeeeep :) :) He is also a habit :o a very strong habit, as he was your friend, supposabley :o well, lets have a think to what we can make your new friend :) how about :)

    Breathing easier

    Whiter teeth

    Smelling nice

    See your grand children grow up

    loads a extra cash

    Not stinking of flippin fags

    Enjoying YOUR life

    Not having to think about where do I get my next fix

    Wrinkles, !! where did they come from ??

    Being able to play with your grand kids

    Your skin feeling softer and younger

    Enjoying your retirement when it comes

    Doing the things you can now do, later

    Not having to Reilly on you know what

    Hair smelling nice and feeling softer

    Not having to think, have I got enough fags to last me

    The list is endless :o

    Jaglan, I know for a fact that you dont want to go through this again :o sooo, please try to stay strong, think of WHY you wanted to quit in the first place :) and get focused on your quit again :) :)

  • Hey monky! Yep I do NOT want to go through this again! And your right... I need to flip my mind set... I just havnt found that key yet. I'm locking mr Nic out just locked myself in at the same time! Just gotta find that brain flipper tool! It's not for the want of trying I can assure you. I'll just have to try harder !

  • Aup Jaglan :)

    Ermmm, maybe your trying tooooo hard to get rid of mr nic eh ???? I've just read the comment above about squirting water over a smoker :o BUT, you were a smoker a few weeks ago :o Sooooo, please dont hate them, just pitty them and try to help them to quit :) :)

    I perhaps think you've gone from one extreme to another tooo fast :o if you see what I mean :o :)

  • That's what monkys school report always said must try harder and look at him nowπŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚πŸ˜‚x

  • I'm LMAO now, you flippin flippin WOMAN you :P :D :D :D xxx

  • Oyyyyy, that was supposed to be 2 xx not 3 xxx must have been a typo :o xx

  • I know ya luv me now😈x

  • Cold turkey is hard, as you have to deal with all the emotions at the same time.

    You truly are doing fantastically, almost a month now smoke freeπŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€

    Like briar and monky have said, we have to change our thinking and focus on the positives.

    I quit cold turkey, and yes, it was tough at the beginning, but, now a year later, I am so glad I rode out the stormπŸ˜€πŸ˜€

    Honestly, I have a calmness now that I never had as a smoker..stay strong jaglan as you are almost through the worst of it...kick ole mr Nic where he belongs

  • I love those words "almost through the worst of it" 😬 sending up my prayers for a nice day tomorrow! I really appreciate that you guys have managed to make yr way through the quagmire of quit emotions! And monky! I don't hate the smokers I'm still JELOUS! Don't want to smoke but do but don't but ya get my drift :-/

  • Yes Jaglan, I get your drift :| :)

    Do you get out and about exercising :o do you go swimming :o just try to alter your routine a bit perhaps :)

  • Up at six every morning to get my son to his special school an hour away. Then back home. Managing running up and down the stairs six times now! First time I managed three and nearly DIED! Then off to get my son at 2.30. So busy days. Have joined everyone active got cardio rehab so that will help I think with getting out and talking to people who are in the same boat...

  • That is flippin ACE Jaglan, running up and down stairs is a fantastic exercise :) :)

    Ermmm, just wandering, if you or your Son has a CD that you can perhaps sort of dance to while your doing the house work :o :) :)

    We are defo in the same boat as you :) :)

  • Stay with us, we will help you through πŸ˜€πŸ˜€

    That is one of the many great things about this site is that it's made up of members who have been where you are now.

    Soon you will be posting like this for newbies πŸ˜€πŸ˜€πŸ˜€

    All our own experiences help others and with commitment and determination it is very doable πŸ˜„πŸ˜„

  • You are a star glolin! You all are a little smoke free galaxy helping us poor new meteorites !!! Big BIG thanks.

    I have commitment just feel I should be better off commited at the moment :-)

  • ACE Lin, just flippin ACE gal :) :) xx

  • hi Jaglan, you've got to be patient with this because believe me it will get easier.

    Those first few months are hell and the cravings seem like for ever and you think you'll never improve.

    But hey it defo gets a lot easier and eventually you start to stop thinking about cigs and smoking - i still have my cravings but i am in control now and they don't get the better of me.

    I look back and laugh at myself - i was dreadful - crying and feeling sorry for myself all over quitting something that was damaging me.

    Hang in there you're doing fantastic and everything you're feeling is so normal.

    Take care



  • Thats just ACE Kas :) and thank you to replying and helping Jaglan :)

    Very very much appreciated :) :)

    Pete :)

  • Aww thanks Pete - nice to give a little bit back after all the help you and the the other quitters gave me


  • Thanks kas!! No funny farm yet then! But must try and avoid jail! I'm holding on tight. Just gotta keep on plodding on xx

  • I too know what you are going through (22 days in) and I feel awful going from being fine to flipping off the handle in 2.5 seconds. But I am using Patches and it seems to help the outburts arn't often but when they hit it's awful. JUST REMEMBER THIS TOO SHALL PASS!


  • Aww my daughter said that to me the other day

    ( so I wouldn't half nelson the postman for breathing!) yes this too shall pass :-) just wish it would pass a little tincture bit faster please god! Well done you on the 22 days... I guess if we have met lucipher already then we must be strong enough to see this through! I trust the people on here which I think is why I havnt caved! Keep strong J and thanks for yr support. I'm rooting for you!!! We SHALL overcome!!! :-)

  • YES we will overcome the demon devil!!

  • I took me like a few months for the anger stuff..few months of craving and chest discomfort.....Chew gum stay busy...I am almost on a year of none .YOU CAN DO IT TOO..GOOD LUCK

  • Woo hoo mdelsan, congratulations on your 1 year badge, fantastic achievement so well done to youπŸŽˆπŸŽŠπŸŽ‰πŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ‘πŸΌπŸ˜Šx

  • Hi ya Mary its soooo lovely of you to come back and help a fellow quitter :) :) Thank you soooo much :) :) xxxx

    Like our Briarwood has said, massive congratulations to you for reaching 1 whole YEAR quit :) :) :)

    Thanking you again Mary :) :)

    Pete :)

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