How long does this anger rage sadness pointlessness anxiety tears go on for???? I truly thought I would start seeing the light by now? I only have moments of relief. I have never cried so much I have never been this person who loses the plot at the slightest thing... I have never yelled at people for driving too slow, too fast too in my way!! Has anyone else had this go on for what feels like a life time... It's only 3.5 weeks I know, but I'm finding it sooooo difficult to agree to spending the rest of my life in this sad rage full place... I really DONT want to smoke those stinking horrible poisonous sticks of hell but I don't want this either!! :-((( sorry for my negativity! Just trying to find the lighthouse!