Haven't posted for a little while - things had been going ok - finished my old job - got a new one to start at beginning of August. Haven't had a ciggy for 80 days - then BAM my doc phoned me up yesterday with an xray result that I had done 2 months ago. Something abnormal on my lung - she asked me if I smoked, then told me I have to see a lung specialist urgently have a bronchoscopy and a CT scan - all of which have been arranged in the next 5 days. Now being from a nursey background - the implications aren't good, they don't pull the stops out unless they think it is ultra serious. So - we all know what that means. There's nothing anyone can say - but for all the ones who are struggling at the moment - keep at it. I really want a fag now - but that ain't gonna help matters so I'll keep eating nicotine and see what Monday at the hospital brings!! Say a prayer or two for me please - am feeling ultra low at this precise moment!!