Tomorrow because come tomorrow, everything and I do mean everything, will change and if the saying all change is for the better is true, then tomorrow, Thursday, 6th June, 2013, is going to change my life for ever and ever.
I am, would you believe, basically a shy person. I don’t really mix that well and if I am going somewhere that I have not been before and meeting new people, I get so nervous I am sometimes physically sick but yesterday, I hitched up my knickers and walked into our local chemist and asked about smoking cessation. Yeah, me, the one who went it alone for 7+ weeks has now asked for help and I have received it.
Took a lot of courage – more than when I quit to be honest because it involved speaking/talking to what was to begin with a comparative stranger, but I am so glad I did it because I now have that bit more confidence to dig deep and start again.
Now as you know, I am always honest and I did fully intend to start my journey on Monday with another one of our members but regrettably, we both succumbed to the things yet again but they started their journey yesterday so I understand and I start mine tomorrow.
I have spent the past hour reading the leaflets that came with my inhalator and nasal spray and am going to give them a try but the young lady (and bear in mind anyone under 30 is young to me ) did say that I could change them to something else in two weeks should I wish to. Couldn’t believe how nice she was – no condemnation, no talking down just a bright and bubbly young girl who wanted to help ME and she certainly accomplished that.
I shall only use these two things should I really, really be desperate but the fact that they are there means that I now have, for the short term anyway, an alternative to puffing on a fag. So that has to be good – well I think so.
No more 5 pm’ish longing will now be satisfied with a real fag – inhalator, you may just be what I need but only for a short while because I don’t intend getting hooked/addicted to you, you may become an acquaintance but I’m very sorry but I don’t want you as a long term friend!
See how I go with these two items and I promise not to bore you all to death with how it goes tomorrow. Well, I don’t think I will but you never know !!!!!