Trauma, Depression, and Isolation

[NatureBoy]

Im a C-PTSD survivor living with depression, anxiety, OCD tendencies, and ADHD. I've been suffering severe isolation since my separation almost two years ago. I sold my home and moved an hour away from everyone I knew thinking my job was about to promote me and then I was laid off so my job and colleagues changed in a heartbeat. It's difficult enough living with trauma issues, major depression and ADHD without the added weight of isolation and loneliness hanging around my neck like an albatross. What makes it most difficult is not having another person's different voice or perspective so there's only the same one that plays in my head on repeat.

I just need to feel like someone cares. My ex was my best friend. The only person I opened up to fully and I feel like I'm slowly dying without her.

[Zeusapollo]

Hey ....you are not alone. I am also am suffering with c-ptsd severely. Almost everything you have posted I have been through or still struggling to get through. I honestly this site and another called supportgroups.com are helpful to me right now. It helps me relieve my trauma breakdowns even just putting it on a post. I commend you for seeking help with us and I will help where I can. It's not easy to be vulnerable but like I have been told we have taken the steps to try and heal. I have horrible days and days that I just get by.... and days that I have more of a better day than getting by. Also therapy does help with the right counselor. If you need support I will be glad to help you through as much as I can. Thanks for sharing I know that is not easy.

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I understand and it does get better. My better ebbs and flows but its a start. You're here and that's good! ~hugs~

[PeaceNeed]

I just read ur post. My situation like yours. People dont want to deal with me.Ive become isolated and I live in the worst place for older people to live.

If the only person u can be with is youself that can be lonely....very lonely.

[Kitsune-Udon]

I know this is an old post, but I'm new to the platform here so just seeing this. How are you doing lately? I hope you took some of the advice in the other comments and are on your way to a brighter day.

I also suffer from c-ptsd, depression and anxiety. I also lost my significant other, of 16 years. I have a young son who doesn't understand why dad and mom no longer are together. Breaks my heart everyday. Something I came to realize after a great deal of reading and some therapy was that I used her as a crutch. I believe this ultimately was what caused our relationship to fall apart. She couldn't be the champion I told myself I needed. Everyone has their own struggles and support takes a lot out of another person. The more you depend on them the harder it gets for them, too.

We have to not only want to be saved but we have to recognize that we are the only ones that can do that. We can't do it alone but we have to be the instruments of our change. No one can hand us the magic ticket to happiness. They can help guide us and be part of our journey but they can't carry us. I thought I would not be able to handle it if I lost my family. It happened though and here I am. I started my journey for recovery by telling myself I had a responsibility to get right for my son. It pushed me to get help. After that I realized that doing it for myself was the key and that it would in turn accomplish the goal I set.

I'm still using it to fuel my change but now I'm intermixing compassion and care for myself along with that drive. We've all got a bumpy road ahead of us, but we can (and will!) do this. It's why we're here on this site. To get helpful resources and feedback. To see that we are not alone. I now know I'm not the edge case I once believed and that in itself was so freeing.

We are all perfectly imperfect human beings with value. No matter what the people in our past did to us. No matter the poor choices we made. We are not the whole of our mistakes. I sound like a self-help book, ha. But I need these reminders too. I do recommend reading some books. I do recommend therapy. I highly recommend a therapist that deals with CBT and PTSD but that is just from my experience. I still want to do EMDR at some point but CBT has helped me a lot. Which is an understatement.

A book that really has helped me is, No More Mr. Nice Guy by Dr. Robert Glover. Even if you don't fit the profile exactly, there is some seriously good advice in there. When I told my therapist about the book I was reading he said that it sounded like a great book and he agreed reading it was worth my time. Your mileage may vary but at this point it can't hurt.

I truly hope you are moving in a positive direction at this point. You deserve to. We all do.