I am writing this to let you all know that I have my home back.
Fiona and Paul moved into their own flat last Tuesday. Fiona's reaction was to tell me I had ripped her heart out. I did ask what she thought it had done to me.
Having said that, Fiona has popped in over the weekend with Paul and said it is the best thing that could have happened to her. That did give me a moment to think I definitely did the right thing. I am lucky in that as Paul doesn't work he was able to spend his days searching for a home.
I must admit when Fiona first left I felt strange about having my space back. I now just love being on my own.
Last Wednesday my daughter-in-law Stacey and I went for a coffee and it was lovely. I went with her to collect the twins, Orissa and Oran (aged 4) from nursery. Each of them ran and grabbed my legs. I felt as though I was dreaming. The shout of "grandma" was fantastic. We then went to collect Lakota (aged 6) from school. Another shout of "grandma" and an enormous hug. The eldest Caitlin (aged 15) just said "hi grandma". My grandson, Evan (aged 14) when he saw me his face lit up. I am so lucky to have 5 beautiful grandchildren. At last something really good has happened. I feel so relieved to have put the last year behind me.
My finances haven't improved any as yet but to have my family back is truly amazing.
The photograph below is of my son and all the grandchildren. Stacey took this last summer at the beach. I feel so blessed.
I am looking into solving some other issues but at least I have a more clear understanding of how to do this. My life is looking up again.
Thank you for all the advice and support.
Love and huge hugs