Hi, had a "lovely" weekend!!!! S woke me up on Saturday morning, managed to get out he was in pain. Gave him some painkillers, hoping that would work. Didn't appear to touch the sides. Rang the rapid response team, (who are meant to rush out, ha ha ha!!!) they told me to ring 111, after a couple of questions the ambulance was dispatched. A wonderful paramedic arrived reasonable quickly. Both of us presumed it was S's catheter playing up, an infection or something. Finally ambulance arrived 2 1/2 hours later, three hour wait in a bloody freezing corridor. I ask you, who designs these places? It's a brand new hospital and the only place for people who come in by ambulance can wait, is right by the main door!!! Finally got S seen, X-rays on everything. His minor UTI, that I thought he had, turns out to be a bowel problem. First thought it was a floppy bowel that had got twisted. Apparently, this is VERY common, in people who don't move around much, (another worry for us, that nobody as mentioned!!!). Decided it wasn't that, mostly likely to be impacted upper bowel. Have tried an enema, which out much success. Put a tube up inside him, to see if they could get rid of any wind. Wouldn't stay in! Today they are going to shove a camera inside to see what's going on! His poor bottom!!!
I knew I was tired before, but oh, how little I know!!! Didn't get home from hospital until just before midnight on Saturday! Went in on Sunday, but once they said he was staying in, I went back to my sisters. There was a Mother's Day party going on, but I (for once!!!) took my own advise and went straight to bed for an hour, before I joined in the celebrations. Mostly just sat in a stupor, not really aware what was going on! Feeling a bit better today. I have my counselling session soon, then I will crawl up to the hospital, but won't stay long, if he is not coming home.
I have had to do this before, spend a whole day waiting around hospitals, without food or drink. But, oh boy, has it knocked me this time. I know I a bit older, the stress levels, while I didn't realise, must of been high. But mostly I have come to the conculsion, that I am so close to my limits, any little thing out of the ordinary, can really throw you!!! So my thought for today, "We must all be aware, that unplanned hospital visits, are GOING to happen, so there HAS to be enough gas in the tank, to cope with the extra pressure. None of us, must let ourselves run on empty, like we ALL do!!!!" Haven't a clue how to achieve this wonderful state. Any ideas????????????????????????
Lots of love