A day of reflection

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Today,for the first time i visited my David's grave,it was tinged with sorrow and all the words i wished i had said,but i said them today anyway .

So many poignant thoughts came flooding back,and i realised grief has so many unopened doors.

I know occasionally i could have been a better partner,but like most people i can acknowledge that i do have my human flaws and frailties.

We cannot change whats gone before,but we can build on it.

I was truly blessed to have a partner who worshiped the ground i walked on,his devotion was without equal and i was so privileged to be a big part of his life.

Today i stood at his grave and honoured his unwavering devotion,and he was also very proud of Queen and Country,having served in the Royal Navy for most of his professional life,and he always refered to her Majesty the Queen as his boss,but in a proud way.

I left Memorial Woodlands with a heavy heart today,and in truth no way should i have driven there alone,and several times people hooted at me ,such was my anquish and tears,however i was so glad to get home in one piece,and i should say until David became so ill,he used to do all the driving,and now thats another thing i struggle with.

Life does continue,but its different.