The definition of pain is, 'A highly unpleasant physical sensation caused by illness or injury'. Of course there is also the silent pain of mental or emotional trauma, and throughout all our lives, all of us will have experienced both. Many of us will have woken up this morning experiencing one or both, and during these moments it's hard to focus on anything else. Having PMR/GCA is a bit like the news.....when it manifests, it's often not a pleasant experience with much perceived as negative. You know the saying?.... No News is Good News! Well similarly, you'd never hear anyone saying, "Oh! I woke up this morning with pain and stiffness in my neck and shoulders again. So pleased its back...I've really missed it.......and as for the steroids, well can't wait to increase them....again!!" Sadly, it's always 'bad news' for most of us when the condition decides to rear it's ugly head!
Today is a special day for me though, and as I look back over my past 63yrs, I think of all the good, happy, healthy, pain-free times, and theyre in abundance..... far more so than I'd probably remember whilst in the midst of a flare, and I think it sometimes helps to just stop and take a moment to remember this.
Life can feel unfair, lonely, cruel, painful, but it can also feel wonderful, joyous, uplifting and nurturing. Things that are worth having in life don't always come easy and 'managing' this condition certainly doesn't! Whatever we're going through on a day to day basis, there will always be a smile to be found somewhere and the light always finds a way through. There's a lovely saying' 'The darkest day only lasts 24hrs'!
So, today I'm going to celebrate!..... Celebrate having a roof over my head.....food in my belly....a son and DIL who love me..... having a kind, lovely man for a husband.... friends who 'care' and all the positive things I can be thankful for despite having PMR..... and yes!.....I'm even going to celebrate having PMR, because PMR has helped me to understand my body so much more....it's helped me take better care of myself and it's allowed me to find support and new friendships from the most caring and genuine body of people here on this forum. It's helped me understand what's important in life, and re-evaluate my priorities, forming new but equally fulfilling goals.
PMR is NOT what defines me, and I am so much more than that!
Today I'm going to celebrate simply, being alive......because today is my birthday!