Greetings to all PolyMyLingerers and Pred Playmates here.
Just a quick update in case any of you can't sleep at night and / or are Bonkers enough to follow my Ramblings...
Ok ok OK!! So, I posted here a couple of weeks ago about my seemingly ambitious (reckless?) 'jumping-off-of-the-edge' of the Pred tapering ski-slope by reducing from 4mgpd to Zero over a 24 hour period. In mitigation, I didn't plan it that way - I simply, and cautiously extended the dosage periodicity by 12, and then 24 hours at a time to see what the effects might be (+/-), and was surprised (nay, astonished) not to have any nasty feedback symptoms-wise at each progressive interval. In fact, I felt slightly better having stopped the Preds, albeit abruptly. So, I have continued at Zero Pred for nearly 3 weeks, and all is good, on balance. Maybe I'm one of the Lucky Ones as regards accelerating Pred tapering.. who knows?
Before you say it: the above approach is NOT recommended for all sorts of reasons - and it flies in the face of the very good advice from the Experts here about Slow and Gradual steroid tapering - even at low dosages (e.g. < 4, or even 2 to 1 mgpd). DSNS Rules...
That said, I've joined (for now, at least) the Elusive PCZ (Pred Club Zero). 'Congratulations!', you might say (and some of you already have - thanks!). But, on reflection, I realise that the ambition to acquire membership of PCZ is probably as much symbolic / perceptual as actual - and isn't always matched by the reality.
By this, I know that so many of Us Lot naturally hope (or pray?) not only to recover from PMR and / or GCA: but also to be able to celebrate no longer being, or seeming to be dependent on the powerful drugs (usually Preds) that manage the symptoms.
In reality, my 3-week membership of PCZ has been ok, overall. I've done as much physically as I normally do (Action-Man type stuff), albeit with some niggling Bursitis (?) in my left hip (Ouch!) and ribs - and some Fatigue - although not the Deathly type. Recent blood tests (ESR / CRP / Thyroid etc) came back as all 'Normal' - Wow! But, even though I still don't feel 100% 'Normal', this is encouraging psychologically, at least.
So, my (amateur) Conclusion?
Try not to see PCZ (Pred Club Zero) as the Ultimate Goal / Prize in getting through PMR and / or GCA - however tempting it might be. With long and Chronic illnesses like ours, this is only a stepping stone to (a hopefully eventual) recovery / remission. As the PMR / GCA Aunties / experts will probably say, even at PCZ there can still be some-way to go in terms of getting back to 'Normal' (whatever that means!). That takes more time still.. possibly 12 months at best, and comes with no guarantees.
And, of course, many of Us Lot have aged by at least a couple of years in the meantime - and at a Time in Life when we might naturally also be 'slowing-down' a bit, both in terms of our physical and mental / emotional energy and resources (sorry!)? Perhaps that's the paradoxical bit of the Ageing Equation that we (me included) might not want to acknowledge in the context of PMR / GCA, or any other co-existing health conditions?
All the same, we perhaps should try to build the above into our perceptions and expectations of our overall Health / Fitness equation and prospects, in Context? A healthy sense of Denial can be a good thing (Story of my Life - Ha!). But an unhealthy sense of Denial / perception of Reality might just trip-us-up somewhere down the line.
This was my 'LightBulb' moment today. Yes, I feel fortunate to have survived my PMR Journey - 'Shaken but not Stirred', as James Bond would say. At the same time, (unlike the fictional Bond), I realise that am not Immortal / Invincible - and I am not age 36 any more (stop laughing please - Teddy gets upset when I am ridiculed..).
Now, CONFESSION TIME:
Despite being a (new) member of PCZ and having had 'Normal' Blood test results, I felt pretty ragged with continuing Hip and Rib pain (probably some residual Bursitis / still-active PMR inflammation?) yesterday and limping about like an 'Old Man' (ha - what, Me?!).
So, I temporarily (for one day) reneged on my PCZ membership and popped 2 mg of THE PRED down my throat. And, Hey Presto, almost instant relief (i.e. within an hour) from the debilitating pain and stiffness.
As a result, I hold my hand up as a PMR / Pred Double Agent and with a size 10 foot in both Camps (no jokes please, Aunties). Yes, my Loyalties are simultaneously to the Pred Cub AND Pred Club Zero - day by day, and with cautious optimism. The term 'Bi-Partisan' comes to mind..? ;-). We'll see...
As always, try to keep smiling on the Journey..
'Uncle' MB