I am really struggling but really good at hiding it
I have had fibromyalgia & widespread myo-fascial pain for 16 years, if that wasn't bad enough after antibiotics that gave me terrible runs and then severe constipation I strained so hard I felt a searing pain in my rectum on the right side from up where my bum joins to the front of my vagina, long story short was told a fissure probably, did th usual arsenal of gtn ointment , etc..been examined a few times even under anaesthetic told yes a fissure, no it isn't , oh yes it is , recently told no it is not pain from a fissure, over the 6 years I have been to dr de Mello who Said it was right sided pne( but at that time he couldn't get NHS funding for c.t guided injections , so a while after that( 2014) saw dr Greenslade Bristol who wasn't sure I was right sided pne so woul not give me a c. Guided injection , my partner and. Are trying to sort out seeing prof Robert in France to see once and for all if i Do hav right sided pne or pain from another source, I feel like a rung out dishcloth all the time , no meds help any of my pain and I have a strong chemical intolerance to so many of them now so can't tolerate them, I cannot believe in this day and age why there are not more specialists who can diagnose pne or pudendal nerve pain, in the U.K or I can barely sit, I can't stand for long , I never feel relaxed , my posture is bad because of the myofascial pain and fibro etc... and I am thinking is it worth living with this anymore, I have become virtual recluse not by choice,at least before the bum pain I did go out more , my partner gets cross with me at times with frustration at our situation which I do understand , I keep thinking as I don't have any family and only one good friend is my life worth living , I feel like I am drowning in quicksand and I keep trying hard but I can't get out of this quicksand, explained to g.p but he can't do anything, I am at a loss, I just don't know what to do, just want to give up permanently