Pushing to hard/pacing

[WIZARD6787]

Going on 7 months of 4 injections a day am now working on how hard I feel I can push before the benefits to my health outweigh the results.

When in the throes of B12 deficiency I did not push too hard as I only did what was necessary to get by.

When working with medical staff and only on 1mg a day of cyanocobalamin and 1 mg of folic acid if I did any thing it was pushing too hard. Thing is I was not pushing too hard I was under treated. It took all the energy I had available to get to the store to buy nutritional shakes to maintain weight. I ate nothing else until I started SI EOD.

The two years of EOD I did sometimes "push" to the point where I was distressed for a week or more. I was not pushing too hard, it was either necessary or doing something for 8 hours so I felt human for a while which was instrumental in my healing. Most note worthy a trip to the highlands which changed me.

When working out how hard I can push now it is necessary to push to the point where I do not feel as well as I would if I had pushed less. It is good for my head which is very important and the only way to know my current state and how to best design how to exercise both my being and my body. The body is the easy part for me.

Two years ago I walked in the woods on a trail when my balance was horrid and no one would have found me. A year ago I walked down a ravine to be with a waterfall and got dizzy on the way out. Had I fallen would have resulted in death although maybe not instantly. I am well experienced with climbing and such. I was thinking that those two "stunts" were a case of taking too much of a risk and pushing too hard. As I wrote I came to understand I needed to take those risks and knew full well the risk I was taking and on some level knew I needed to at that time. I was not foolish and was careful. I would not go down that ravine without ropes again. At the time I was not an active participant on this forum and unaware of the medicial breakthrough called topping off.

So what I have done a lot of was self gas-lighting. Good to know!

I find it intrinsic that anyone who can legitimately tell when I am pushing too much must also be expert enough to tell me what supplements I need including but not limited to 4 injections a day. Otherwise the advice is not given on my level of understanding.

I am well aware that this narrative makes me look pretty good. I have people in my life who I can share this narrative with and are comfortable telling me I am full of it. Those on this forum can only evaluate what I write. Although they seem to be comfortable telling me politely I have my understanding wrong.

Not to worry I will get back to proper self doubt soon enough. 🙂

[Narwhal10]

I appreciate your posts WIZARD6787,

Well, I hope you enjoyed the waterfall and the ravine. If this is the way, you wish to enjoy your life, then you can purchase flares.

Distress signals can easily picked up by those who know about them. Search and rescue will find you. Pick you up, take you to a place of safety.

They may ask what on earth were you thinking. WIZARD6787, some of us just love the big, wild outdoors. We can battle the elements and can get out of situations.

Decades ago, abseiling, I lost my footing, dangling upside down just by a rope, I admired the view and laughed.

Thinking , if it is my time then so be it. A stern voice came from the top. Will you behave ? I thought, Never.

But said, ‘Give me a minute.’

Doctors underestimated me, one circle of friends, use my surname. Now why would that be ? 😈

[Ghound]

I too appreciate your posts ! 👍🙂 I've been dismayed to realise that I've been subconsciously curtailing where I go and what I do as a result of this condition. 😡

Best wishes xx

[Rosydawn in reply to Ghound]

Me too, but after 4 years of EOD SI set myself the challenge this year of travelling abroad to see my brother and sister. Started with the easy one … Germany … tickets bought

[WIZARD6787 in reply to Rosydawn]

Good on you!

[Ghound in reply to Rosydawn]

Brilliant !👍😃 Have a lovely time with your family xx