Whats wrong with me or is it nothin but me being a wee drama queen? Suggestions please?

[MetalJesus]

Hi so i have been told i have depression and have been seeing a cpn. I also have extremly bad anxity and the medication the doc prescribed makes it worse (venlaflaxine) when i said this he just increased the dose and again did not help finally he has changed it and tryin something else propanalo and citralapram. I hope this will help abit at least but it feels like am just mental and theres nothin wrong with me. I also dont sleep for days which he prescribed zoplan-sonething can mind now but just a few days worth and then 2 weeks worth they did seem to help i was actually sleepin like a normal person but back to not sleepin which i said when asked but he hasnt said anything on it and has not gave me anything to help but thats fine whatever am sure loads of people cant sleep for 5,6 days sometimes more until they pass out from exhaustion not really bothered by that used to it. Its the constant headaches and panic attacks that can last for 2 days at least (usually more) that i am hopin he can help with its really debilatating. Also my lower back is now swollen and sore to move as well as the back of my right hand but he said hes not to conserned about that so cool. I cant seem to consentrate on anything its so difficult to stay focused on anything i feel useless and ignorant but i cant help it and have gotten used to hiding it for so long that am really good at it and noone really notices really which is good. My shoulders and top of my back get so painful i just cant it comfy at all when i actual get an oppertunaty to rest and they make a horrible crunchin and crackin noise which it wasnt like before. There is more but noone seems to care or help so it probally is just in my head so only way out is a long walk i wont come back from so sick of feelin this way i actual cry for no reason when am alone (never cry in front of people you cant show them your weak they will just use at against you and fuck you over) just thought i would try this before i go. If you have managed to read this mess thank you so much youve no idea how much i appricate it. Sorry for wasting your time and asking if you can help just thought its worth abash before i check out and you dont know who i am so cant hurt. Thanks again ti anyone who took the time to read and reply dont feel you have to am not worth it. I hope you all live a long and happy life your a good person ☺ peace out 🙋

[Philip]

I know with most medication takes a while to get into the system, I have dementia and the anxiety keeps attacking me and I go to bed and sleep as soon as possible. Anxiety is a very nasty thing to have and those who don’t get it, please don’t knock it lol.

[dtech in reply to Philip]

Hi Phillip. Wondered where you had gone.

[Philip in reply to dtech]

I’m still here lol, good to see your still around to lol, my memory keeps holding me back lol. Sad to say but my dementia is at me and when I sit down or even walk lol, I don’t or cannot think about anything until something prompt me into it and I keep missing things, I hate it. Upwards and onwards. Lol

[Eian59]

Hi

Your not wasting anyone's time that is what the site is for. Hope you can get the right medication,I know what it's like being in pain all the time you can't concentrate on things.

I don't sleep to well and it gets to me sometimes but try and keep your chin up the meds take a bit time to work so stick with it. Hope you feel better soon and remember if you want to talk just message.

[johnsmith]

I am not sure what I am dealing with here. This in turn makes it very difficult to frame a reply that can be helpful and not destructive. I know what psychiatric drugs do to people by seeing the effects on people I know.

If I get it wrong, please say so. Most if not all of the people on this forum know something of so-called medication given out by doctors can have nasty side effects of the psychiatric kind.

april.org.uk/ is a website containing information about psychiatric side effects of drugs.

There is a form of emotional abuse called "Mind Rape". Mind Rape is where a person's self worth is attacked and severely damaged by people who hold positions of authority. Whether parent -child, doctor - patient, teacher-pupil or other combinations. Mind rape is a hidden problem because the people who engage in it are often considered respectable by others.

Self worth is not the same as self esteem. I have low self esteem in regard to speaking French and high self esteem in my knowledge of health issues. I know what it is like to have low self worth as a result of going from full employment to being dependant on the state. I had to re-build my self worth by doing things that made me of value to people in my local community.

What you need are: tools to develop or re-develop your sense of self worth; tools to investigate your chronic health condition. Help to feel better.

Join a local church that is to your liking. You do not have to believe. The religious traditions have been handling mental health difficulties for thousands of years using various techniques. Some of the local churches can be very supportive in ways that you at the moment cannot imagine. Join their bible class. By the way I am a Buddhist and I attend a local bible class. I learnt a lot about the development of very useful social skills. I had to re-learn a lot of things as a result of a road traffic accident which destroyed my career, left me with physical problems, chronic pain and mental health problems.

Join a martial art class. The Eastern martial arts have been treating various types of mental health difficulties for hundreds of years. The emotions are felt in the body. Change body movement and posture and the emotions will change. Joining a martial art class will enable you to meet people sharing a common goal which can be very therapeutic.

You have skills to develop. If you are in the UK there is much talk about peer support. Local local MIND charity can give you some more details about it. Peer support is support by people who have experienced mental health problems and know from life experience some of the difficulties you have. They are not like psychiatrists or cpns who talk trained textbook. Peer supporters are people who have been where you are.

Hope I have been able to be useful.

[SquirrelsHolt in reply to johnsmith]

Excellent advice there ,very interesting and informative!

[Carol53]

I've been on the same antidepressant for years the only one that worked but side affects can Couse most things your going through your body has to adjust anxiety does strange things to I've had many felt like a tight band round my head would pace around the house body felt stiff couldn't sleep felt like I was possessed anger frustrated even hate strange pains it's horrible you never think it's never going to end I didn't notice at first that I was getting better then I was making jewelry did this focus on something else than the angxity and realized I was normal . It will take time think six months for me but try to ignore the strange stuff I know it's horrible but it is in your head but that's the depression and anxiety not you just the nature of the illness hope I've helped a bit I've suffered with mental illness all my life so please if you need to or have strange feelings you don't understand just talk if you want to carol

[TracySdlover]

You are very worthwhile. I am am sorry that at this moment you are dealing with so much at once. Medication change and pain and Dr's not appearing to understand or care. Totally relating. Please find something else to focus on. One moment at a time. This crap does pass. But the constant in everything is that you are always valuable. Your insight and empathy can be shared to help someone else. When you can. Dont forget, just lack of sleep alone can reduce coping abilities, and you have other issues too. It will get better, so dont do anything in haste. You are not alone.

[6092177588]

I wish I had the words to express your issues. I have much pain and still need a neurologist. Ms support group may help. Docs want to prescribe but you need to see what can help. I don't try unless I know what is going on. Be well and peace.