I thought I would share my own experiences in hope that others may be able to recognise how I feel and maybe that they are not alone.
Three years ago I was a fit active woman, I ran my own company, kickboxed twice a week, in the gym everyday and a Head Door person. I had been a successful gymnast and I know my physical abilities created a large part of my personality and social circle.
In 2010 I dropped a tv on my foot and it triggered crps in my foot then leg and now the whole of my left hand side of my body. It has left me confined to a wheelchair, in constant pain and unable to do some of the most basic functions of my daily life. My brain however is the still brain that spent 44 years being physically orientated. I get frustrated, I get angry and I mourn what was. My friends often introduce me to new people as this is Nutty she used to be a gymnast and she used to be that, as if well look at her now she is nothing, she is valueless.
I am still struggling with this but as I have recognised the problem and am now working on resolving it by creating a new way of looking at myself, a new way of sharing who I am with others and gaining confidence that I still have a value to society and more importantly to myself.
I started by writing a list of everything I can still do and all the new things I have learnt to do. I wrote down what hobbies I wanted to take an interest in and how I was going to achieve that goal. I introduce myself as Nutty, admin assistant into photography and crime novels. I talk about the things I plan to do and what I hope to achieve in the future. This change in me has triggered a change in how my friends view me and they now say things like, wow you should see this pic Nutty got of the marina and did you know Nutty is planning on ...........
It is still hard and I still mourn but now I can enjoy the memories of the past whilst looking to the future.
I hope this helps one other person recognise that change can be positive and there is life after disability.