I am beyond despondent. I am in Canada and I feel so down right now. I need a lot of support because I need someone who can encourage me or who has examples of success.
I have a few other posts but I didn't update them yet. Don't have much energy to do so.
I am having a recurrence. It has returned in the peritoneum (nodules, little tumours). I had been in remission close to 6 years and was feeling great. I was diagnosed in April 2017 with OC and it was grade as a 3C. I did well with the carboplatin and paclitaxel. At the time that I was diagnosed, I went to the hospital because I was getting sicker and sicker. They had taken my CA-125 and if I recall it was about 1200 but when I started getting treatment (they drained me of about 10 litres of fluids, did more tests at another hospital, had to wait for the biopsy etc so only started chemo in May 2017). By May 2017, when they took my CA-125, it had gone up to 2800. I was shocked at how high it was but it did come down to 800 after the third treatment just before the operation. A month after my operation, it was back to normal and I did 3 more rounds of chemo. I also found out the following year that I carry the BRAC2 mutation.
Now, with the recurrence, which came on very fast because it was my upper torso that was getting tight, I had just come back from the doctor and she had felt my entire stomach and even said that my lymph nodes in my stomach were normal sized (I am very slender). I went back later to see her as my stomach was buffier so she had ordered an ultrasound. I took it upon myself to go see my oncologist the next day and he couldn't feel ascites at the surface but sent me to a CT Scan.
Sure enough, it has come back and the report says thickening of the peritonium and I didn't have all the details but when they sent me back for more tests, the radiologist told them that there was more details so there are a bunch of nodules and little tumors on that lining in the stomach. It was also confirmed that there are ascistes and as my stomach was rapidly getting larger, I asked to be drained. They took out 4,8 litres this time which shocked me because I am very slender. I was weighed at 103.4 pounds at the doctors but I know that I was only eating once a day because I was scared to eat (it would hurt after because it pushed on my stomach).
I called the oncology nurse that I am friendly with because I had questions. She is very kind to me. I asked her some questions about constipation because I am unable to go without any help. I said that I didn't want to know my CA125 as I didn't ask. She said the doctor's weren't basing themselves on that but the cat scan for the plan which is 3 rounds of chemo, a cat scan and then probably 3 more rounds of chemo. Well, I asked her to give it to me and she said that it was over 5,900!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How can that be that I am not even feeling sick. How can it be double from when I was so sick that I could barely walk and could not eat and was so bloated. This was taken at the end of June as well before I was drained. They are basing themselves on that one and did not take another one when I did the chemo yesterday. They will take one the day before my chemo.
I am so scared right now. I just need people to tell me experiences about their recurrences that had super high numbers like that. Please help me. When I did the CT scan, the requested one for the pelvis and stomach when the oncologist wanted a full one so I had to go back to do one for the chest and lungs last Friday. I have no issues breathing, shortness of breathe and walk several kilometers without any issues. I don't have the results of that either.