I had surgery a week ago to remove an ovarian cyst. The doctor wasn't concerned since I have PCOS. She thought it was a dermoid cyst. Surgery went well, and I went home feeling very positive.
The initial biopsy came back showing a borderline malignant tumor. Although scary, she once again seemed positive because it was caught early, but sent the slides to Mayo Clinic for a second opinion.
I found out today that it's not so positive. The biopsy of the ovary shows "Clear cell carcinoma arising in a borderline clear cell
tumor" and the endometrial biopsy shows "Proliferative endometrium with stromal breakdown and focal
atypical clear cell changes."
I don't understand what much of that means, but my doctor is telling me this is cancer. I see an oncologist obgyn next Friday. They are rushing everything, which is also scaring me.
I made the mistake of Googling clear cell carcinoma and scared myself even more. Apparently it's the really bad kind. She already told me that they have no idea how advanced this is until we do a complete hysterectomy with staging. Initially it looks like stage 1, but they can't be sure. I'm extra worried because of the atypical cells they found in the uterus. I assume atypical means cancer too.
I am absolutely terrified. I just went back to work this week, and I am trying not to have a complete breakdown in front of everyone. Already I have been so nervous that I'm not sleeping or eating. My Dad already has me in the grave - saying that everyone eventually dies when they get cancer.
I'm only 35. I just want to live, and I need answers.
Any tips on how to cope? I feel like I'm going to have a nervous breakdown.