I went to the chemo unit today for what I was told was my last chemo. It had been delayed already two and half weeks as my bloods were low again, so had the usual blood transfusion. Carbo only the same as my last 2, but this time introducing avastin, which I am to have 18 sessions of.
I arrived at 10. At 11 my phone rang and it was my oncologist. He said I could not have avastin with the carbo on its own so I would need to have paclitaxol today with the carbo and first avastin and then two more sessions of carbo/taxol/avastin. If I said no I couldn't have the avastin. It was something to do with the funding. I had seconds to make the decision to have taxol, was really put out that I was put on the spot like that.
I'm really disappointed that I'm not finished. Two more to go now, but I really don't think I had a choice. I didn't want to regret turning down avastin just because of two more chemos.
Of course I'm wondering if Iv done the right thing, as I felt really well after my last blood transfusion and now this is a kick in the teeth again.
Best part is I don't think I need the chemo, but have to tick the box to get avastin. To me that's a waste of funding.
And of course I will lose my hair again. I don't mind but it has taken 4 months to get about an inch back and I was quite getting used to it. My sister gets married beginning of April and was kinda hoping for a bit of a style, but looks like the wig will now be needed.
Sorry to moan but feeling a bit angry at the mo. I'm trying to see positives to keep me going but it's hard. Can't wait till the chemo is over.
Those of you who have had avastin is it worth it?? A lady who had the same op as me hasn't even been offered it so should I see this as being lucky to get it??