I've been up since 3.30 am and have been out for a long walk. I saw my oncologist yesterday following my CT scan. CA125 now 93 and recurrence of 2cm tumour in peritoneal area with other smaller areas. She is suggesting Carboplatin and Caelyx to start whenever I "feel like it".
I don't understand. I feel so well with no symptoms. I want to howl and howl and howl. I've done everything I can over the last 2 years to put the cancer behind me and here we are again. I had to tell my two children and my sister last night and this is probably what's upsetting me most. I read other people's posts about this so I probably don't need to say any more. You all understand.
How can I "feel" like having chemo?? I made my husband promise me after the first time never to let me forget how awful chemo was, and never to let me have it again. I've read some of your posts about Caelyx and I worry. My oncologist is arranging a session with a psychologist - although already I feel the barriers coming up! I have a built-in cynicism. It all feels so hopeless yet I know I need to be positive for myself. Please help.