I am sitting here crying as I write this . It is such a beautiful sunny day but I am devastated by a phone message I just listened to 20minutes ago. I had been waiting for results of CT scan which was done exactly 2 weeks ago today. Although I was hoping that as it took so long to get back to me that all would be well now it appears that my lymph nodes are enlarged and that this indicated recurrence. Of course as with this disease I was on one of my many trips to the toilet I missed the call . I rang back to get a voicemail that said no one in the surgery until tue ! I am all alone until this evening and I cannot get any of my friends . I don't want to tell my family just yet . I am now waiting for my GP to ring back. I just needed to tell someone and I thought of all you lovely women first. Please pray for me.