Hello lovely ladies. So -- it looks like I'm done with the chemo. I spoke with the CNS/Macmillan Nurse Lady today and got her up to speed -- that my 6th round had been delayed again on Friday, and my neutrophils lower than the previous week, etc. I told her, whatever the oncologist advises, I will do -- but if he thinks it's okay to stop now, I'd be fine with that.
Well, about 6 this evening I noticed I had a voicemail - hadn't even heard the phone ring! And it was from her, saying "I spoke with the doctor and he says it's okay to stop now. I'll cancel your next round and you've finished treatment okay bye". I had to listen to it about three times to let it sink in. She sounded so casual, and I never even spoke with the oncologist, so it all feels almost anti-climactic? But I'm sure he would have insisted on speaking with me if he had any concerns, right? They're just so weirdly chill about everything, this team. I can just imagine her saying to the oncologist, "Yeahhhh that American lady called, she wants to stop chemo, and he's like "Fine, whatever."
I have my follow up CT scan in the morning, then an appointment with the onc the week after that so I can get some reassurance then that this is all truly okay.
I'm feeling a bit weird that I didn't technically finish; a bit of a failure maybe? But mainly I'm relieved and happy. And very very grateful for all of your advice and support.
Love from Kerry xxx