I’m posting cos I feel like I don’t know how to feel, if that makes any sense? I had treatment number 6 a few days before Christmas, first line. I’m well enough but tired after all the Christmas stuff. My lovely hubby seems to think that’s it, I’m cured and life is good.. but I’m a bag of nerves. On Wednesday I have a review and results of ct scan from the 27th dec. even tho my previous scans have been clear (but as onc says a few spots on liver but lots of people have that... whatever that means) , I still worry I might get bad news. Every little twinge is a potential tumor in my mind! Hubby is planning holidays etc and I just can’t get into that. I still feel like I have no control over my future. I know these feelings are prob normal, just needed to vent.