Covid Struggles

[RachRoux]

Hello, I'm new here and didn't really know where to turn.

Since covid started the contamination side of my OCD has got much worse. I feel like going outside makes me feel contaminated because of the virus and so I spend all my time indoors. I get my shopping delivered but now things have become more strict the delivery people can no longer come into my apartment building and the last delivery was just an absolute nightmare. The food was in plastic tray liners (not bags) and left on the floor outside my apartment building. The liner was covered in muddy water as it had been raining and I just froze i didn't want to even move it i just wanted to run away. I didn't want it in my house. I managed to get the stuff inside then spent hours trying to work out what I could clean and decontaminate like tins etc and what was too contaminated. It was awful and I had several panic attacks. Now I need more shopping but that being the new system is just not something i can go through again. How am I supposed to get shopping? I have no family and my boyfriend lives in another city.

I know I'm not the only one struggling at the moment I just feel so frustrated at supermarkets. Why make things so difficult? I don't want to waste plastic bags but I recycle everything. I have multiple health problems and it's just unfair for so many people.

Sorry I'm just so fed up

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