Lockdown

[Chelle-Louise]

Well, just had the most bizarre reaction walking home today from work.. my partner had to take the car so I said I'd walk home, this isn't anything new and I've been doing this walk to/from work for the last 13yrs or so but today I hated every single minute of it!! I've become really obsessed a lately about traffic, pavements and crossing roads. All totally irrational! But today as I was walking through the park I was getting more and more anxious about getting to the exit gate which leads onto a busy main road. The closer I got the more I began to panic and just as I was about to walk through the gate my feet rooted into the ground and my brain just said NOPE!

I moved backwards into the park, having a mini panic attack trying to tell myself to sort myself out and saying it's ridiculous but I just couldn't get myself to walk through that gate into the traffic! In the end I phoned my dad who just happens to work near me and I knew he'd be passing the park and he had to come and get me to take me 400yrds to my house!!

I could cry... what the hell is wrong with me

I'm getting worse and worse as the days go on