well have been on mtx injection now for very short time over from oral and I've had such a bad tummy and been very restless again. Not as severe as when I first started mtx in November. Was due to see Physio for couple of session but just could not face it. I'm so bloody tired and lacking in motivation it's unreal. Moments of real melancholy and just being fed up. Then looking at my children and right must carry on but honestly trying to keep my bloody job, taking my share of the child care as wife works full time to is starting to tell on me. I've always loved my work but now I just feel on auto pilot alot and the middle management brigade are attempting to apply pressure are peeing me off. I've never backed away from injustice and discrimination in any form so I give a kick in there arses occasionaly which in turn gets there backs up further about risk assessing my role further. Some times I feel like going on permenant sick but Im trying to avoid so now do phased hours but the arses will be getting tight about that soon.
Reading the blogs and knowing the benefits system I know people forced onto it by illness are having such a tough time so Im clinging onto it all the best I can. Chin Up that's the saying isn't it