Why am I excited? Well ridiculous as it seems, tomorrow instead of taking my MTX orally am taking it by injection and am so so hoping that all this sickness and nausea and just plain feeling miserable will go " poof" as if it were a cloud of fairy dust. Not that I know what a cloud of fairy dust looks like you know but we all can use our imagination.
Allow me to have a pity party for a few minutes, everything hurts worse than a few weeks ago, the pain is more vicious and tonight I have been awake since about 2am, now after five and need to get up in two hours for work, may have to call in sick for the first time, am simply exhausted. I shared an incident with a new friend today and wanted to share. I have read that RA causes isolation and for the first time I realised how all to easy that would be, went to a meeting, shook hands with the five people there, and how my hand screamed at me to stop- they all have firm hand shakes as I used to have, and with each successive one I could feel my smile beginning to falter.
At the end of the meeting I felt so rude and so bad because I simply waved them all adieu and then declined lunch as is our usual routine. All I wanted was pain killers, something to take away the nausea and my bed. I so missed the lunch, so much is chatted about and is always a good release after the tensions of a quarterly meeting with customers.
So now I need to find a way to deal with that, not sure how and really is probably too early in the process to even think about however I am now aware and will be watching .
Ok pity party over..... Central heating is working!!!!! No biggie you would think, well the boiler is 30 years old, well worn, just like myself, and have been thinking about replacing for a little while..... Three quotes in and decision made, guess what, the boiler goes and up dies, well not quite but close ........my son gave it some gentle hugs and helped it along, still think my idea was better which was to hit it with a hammer. So for the past five days i have been sitting wrapped up with blankets watching TV at night and I have been just so so cold and so after my day at work I went and quietly spoke with the boiler, no hammer in sight, and pleaded my case and for it to continue giving me the service it has over the past 30 years for another week. A little while later I heard it kick on.....so everyone is forbidden to touch and will leave running 24/7 and do not care about the fuel bill. Do not believe my house has ever been this warm and at night too....
Gritter has just gone down the street- snow is a comin.
I hope all of you stay safe and warm this weekend and at least a we have a great excuse for not clearing the driveway!,