The last time i wrote i thought i had Oedema and was going for blood tests and scans to verify.
I was wrong!
I have a blood clot (DVT) and I am being started on Warfarin. Not what i wanted to be told at all =(
I have just got in from the hospital. The blood tests and scans show things are a little bad, bu they can be managed and cured. This was my greatest fear. Is this going to part of that old saying "It's got to get worse before it can get better.!?
It's not the end of the world. I know that, i do. But with the way this year has gone i feel utterly pathetic....useless!
I used to be a real 'Happy Go Lucky' cheerful guy, but i feel i am at the end of my tether. I lost my job. I nearly lost my girl. I have practically zero money "living" on benefits. I have no means of my own transportation. I have put on weight. I have no one visit me. I have nothing to look forward to this christmas!
Right....that's all a bit pathetic isn't it? I mean, i should really get a grip on myself and stop acting like a "poor me" character. Positives: I have a roof over my head. I have had a hip replaced which (will) get better, but it'll take time. I am not THAT overweight. There's too much emphasis on weight, and being a stone or so over is NOT that big a deal, is it? Once i am healed i can look for another job. It's what plenty of people do, and i will just be another. I have friends willing to help and listen (i just have to let them). I have a partner who (despite all this crap and how i take it out on her. Verbally NOT physically!!) she is behind me all the way and helping as best as she can. And money? When does ANYONE have enough money??
So...I am on Warfarin for 4 months and i just have to get on with it and heal. It's going to be tough, but then it's always been tough. This is just tougher!
I warble on too much but i feel like people on here will know where i'm coming from. And that is a great relief. At some point i hope to show my 'happy go lucky/cheeky chap' side again.
Thank you all for your kind words so far. I shall try and help others as best as i can too =)