hi All feeling much better than yesterday and have recieved a call from my daughter this morning. :))

Hi my lovely friends hope you are all having a pain free day!!!

Thankyou for all your kind words and support yesterday it really did help, i have had a good sleep i'm not saying i didnt toss and turn with the upset of yesterday because i would be lying, but i did sleep some and felt a lot better for it. I woke this morning to a very swollen and painful right hand, wrist, knee and ankle and two toes on my right foot. what is it with my right side lol, it has a mind of its own the left doesnt seem to play up so much , my wrist and knee are the worst pain but i have took my meds and my 4th Enbrell injection ( red raised leasion on other leg from reaction to injection now gone fully) and now at 1.30 this afternoon it has started to dampen down the pain.

Yes i got the call this morning from my daughter who to say the least was very apologetic and upset with what she had done. We had a long chat about things and touched on my RA , she has invited myself and her dad over for dinner Tuesday evening to see our grandsons and to have a good chat and to clear the air and to also find out why she has nt been herself for some time ,she has assured me its nothing we have done , she has been having a rough time of it lately in adjusting after her seperation with her partner, she has tried not to show it because of my illness and didnt want to burden me with it. I assured her no matter how ill i got her father and i would always be there to listen and help in any way we could, all we ask in return is respect and love. She has also said she is struggling in understanding my illness, i have assured her i am still me but a little different in the way i do things now. So we are going down to have a chat together with her tomorrow eveing. I'm so happy amends have been made and we are to sort it all out and i get to see my babies too.Oh and yes i am going to take her some leaflets on RA too. It was funny i was about to ring her but as i picked my phone up it rang and it was my daughter .

i feel like a huge weight has lifted off my shoulders, i dont like to fall out with my children yes we have disgreenments like all familys do but in general. we are all close. So i am so glad we are speaking on good terms again, there are lessons to be learnt from this for both of us .

I would just like to say a huge thankyou to all who supported me yesterday for your kind words and support it really helped me through a very upsetting time..

I have drove out to the local shop to buy my grandsons their water guns so they can shoot the spiders in the garden with water and to play water fights lol ,and i also treated them to an outfit each for when the sun comes again. I know i should be resting but just couldn t help myself. Hope you all have a lovely day and do not have too much pain.

So thankful for this site and the friends on here. love and hugs lena xxx :))

[trace65]

So pleased she rang you Lena, bet you are so relieved that things are out in the open. You sound such a loving a caring family and I'm sure you'll be able to support each other. Thank you for letting us all know

Tracyxxx

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Hi Trace, thank you i am very relieved today and feelin better, but i feel so sad for my daughter, but she will be okay we'll make sure of it . I feel a little guilty now, just wish she had spoken to me. thank you again for you support it was gratefully recieved and appreciated. big hugs lena xxxx )

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I missed your blog yesterday, but gather from above that things were not too great. It' good that your daughter has got back to you, and the air clearer between you both. As you say we all have disagreements within families, it's especially hard when it's your kids. Take care xxx

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Thank you georje, we are back on track have alot to discuss but it will be okay lots of confusion , but will sort it out. The main thing is that the disagreements are sorted out in a constructive and happy way and i get my daughter back happy again. I think sometimes our children think we are mind readers lol . lena xxxx

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hi scouser, i am happy we are sorting things out . just feel so sad for my daughter, wish she had spoken to me this illness causes not just pain it causes confusion for families as well, i hate to think she is struggling and in pain feel guilty for not realising it but if she doesnt tell me how can i help. Well i wont worry about that now, we'll go down and make sure everthing is sorted out and support is given where needed and she understands my illness better so she doesnt t feel like this again . Really looking forward to seeing my daughter and grandsons and laughing together again. thank you for the support you gave me yesterday i really appreciate it . big hugs lena xxx

[pennylane]

Hi Lena

So glad to hear things are better today, felt so upset for you yesterday. I think sometimes we take our frustrations out on the people we love the most. Hope you have a good chat with your daughter & can support each other through this tough time. You sound like a lovely, supportive family. Enjoy spoiling your grandsons.

Sending hugs xx

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thankyou pennylane, i really apreciated your support yesterday your so kind everyone has been . i am much happier today and looking forward to tommorow evening sorting things out and spoiling my little men :). We are close and have always supported each other thats why it hurt so much. But hey we will sort it out it is a horrid illness and our families suffer as well as they cant do alot to help. But thank you again for your lovely kind support. big hugs lena xxxx :))

[allanah]

Great stuff!! ............lick your wounds and smile ......lol till shes fed up next time hee hee, kids , who would have them!! lol.

No I am glad she phoned you and realised Axx

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messaged you back Allanah x but yeah me too hun thank you for your support and kindness. hun. xxx

[sylvi]

Lena, my daughter worries about me and is so afraid of getting it herself,bu ty disease does get her down and she won't tell me things in case it upsets me. I am pleased that your daughter has apologised to you. It is so hard on our families as they don't understand the pain and they are helpless to help us. When you meet your daughter sit down with her without the children there and tell her how she made you feel. She is having some problems of her own,but if she shared the problem with you it would ease the problem, you might be able to help psychically,but emotionaly you have the time to ease her worries.

Lena my love to you and your family,xxx

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hi sylvi whats happening i have replied twice to you and our bloggs keep diappearing? lol !! Is the site having a pian day and not coping lol !! Thankyou again for your kindness and support i totally agree with you on all accounts and thats something i will discuss with her. Lessons to be learnt i think. i dont know whether you got my last reply hun but i meant what i said when we are in stratford next time usually summer months i would love to meet up and have a cuppa and a lovely chat.Then i can give you a big hug in person. my love to you and your family too sylvi . xxxxx

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I would be only to happy to meet you lena you state when your coming over and we will come and see you.Your daughter will become wise like youwhen she really grows up and that only comes with time. I did reply re; meeting up in stratford and i don't know what is happening either. Our families are the glue that keep us together lena aren't they.xxx

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lovely sylvi i will , i have to have an op shortly hope fully beginning of june on my parathyroids in my neck as they found a large benign odeoma on the right side . once got that out the way and get my voice back( i'm hoping it wont effect it too much) i will message you when we are coming. Lol i think the sites having a bad day lol.!! Yes she will get wiser as she gets older she has a lot to learn in life yet. I totally agree families are what keep us together and wouldnt be without mine warts and all as i'm sure everyone feels the same, but they can do some hurtful things at times and only they can hurt you that much. But hey it will be okay i'm sure of it give her some good old momma and poppa advice and understanding and she will be fine lol !!! i'll look forward to us meeting up. xxx

[Caza]

So pleased for you Lena,hate ill feelings with my children. I thought as much,your daughter having a tough time as well. Hope your the grandkids don't get you with the water guns!! x

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Thank you caza i really appreciated your kind words and support yesterday everyone were so supportive we will sort it now she has told me what the problem is . I cant wait to play with my grandkids and the water guns i missed them Saturday as i was suppose to have them over night. So really looking forward to seeing them. Big hugs caza . xxxx lena :))

[miss]

Hi Lena i am sure you will be much happier today. So happy that you have lets us all know your news. .Am sure those hugs will be wonderful for all of you xxxx

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Thankyou miss , everyone has been so supportive . I am happier today and looking forward to having a good chat with my daughter. I have pleny of hugs to go round believe me lol !! xxxx

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So glad you have got it sorted.

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thanks mads me too. xxxx