Day 38 and still keeping some sort of focus - albeit, a bedraggled kind of manic one. I swing from positivity to negativity within minutes. It feels like a kind of loneliness. I am filled with energy and productivity one part of the day to absolute lethargy a few hours later. I keep wanting to go to the back door but find I have not 'friend' their anymore. I am slathering myself in spot cream, eating too much, falling asleep and then having insomnia. Who knew being a non smoker was such a myriad of emotions huh. I have to keep at this though. That 'friend' was gonna kill me. I need to become friends with fresh air.