Absolutely pants day today!

God help me, not too good so far

[Nozmo Valued Contributor]

What's up mmaya? Having cravings or just a really bad day? Or both?

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Thanks guys, sorry I didn't reply, no wifi since 10.

I wouldn't call it cravings, I don't believe in cravings after no cigarettes for so long.

Due to a huge list of unfortunate incidents this morning, which I'll just mention a few - high heal got stuck on a stone and broke as I walked into a building for a big meeting?! - Hello?!

Or the wipes stopped working as I was overpassing a truck in the motorway - nearly crashed?!

The list keeps going on and on...I surrender! I'm going to sleep at 1pm and I will not get up until tomorrow morning.

It was really hard to resist a cigarette this morning, it actually felt impossible.. I hope I don't have another one of those anytime soon.

[Incy_Wincy]

But you got through it honey! Every temptation beaten is another win for you - so YAY!

Keep it up mmaya

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Thanks incy!... The junkie talk taking over my little brain

I managed to snap out of it and came home, had a lovely hot shower and had a bit of sleep, I'm feeling better now.

Xxx

[Hercu Valued Contributor in reply to Hidden]

Glad you made it Mmaya..You have battled so hard to get where you are and need to be strong....But there was a big victory today...Keep it up..... You can do it !!!

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Just about made it Hercu. Very challenging today, I probably should go and buy a lottery ticket now

Today was one of those days made to relapse.

Analysing it a bit, the aftermath... I only had 4 hrs sleep, left the house at 6am for a 3 hrs drive, extremely cold today - for me it is - didn't have breakfast. Too much coffee and big anxiety as I had a big job to be done

In the end, I didn't need cigarettes... I needed sleep.