***Sigh what a day

Well today I had the dentist as a filling fell out, I hate the dentist ever since I had to have 4 teeth removed when I was only 17 due to gum disease and was given false one 😓 anyhow I made it there without a cigarette hoping and praying, to be stayed and told the whole left side of my top teeth have roots that have crumbled, again mainly due to gum disease but by no way helped with smoking. I'm back tomorrow where he is going to try and save them with root canal and filling but he's not holding much hope.

I was/am obviously devastated and came out absolutely screaming at hubby for a cigarette (silly really seeing as their partly to blame) I was in meltdown mode and in the end hubby got me a vapour one with 4mg nicotine and I caved in and I had it, I felt no better still don't and still just want to smoke and sulk but I'm trying to be strong and hold off only 30 minutes left and the local shop is shut and I'd have to travel 35min to buy some.

I know it won't help and I know their why I'm here so to speak, but why is it they seem so tempting when we're down 😢😢😢

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  • Stayted is meant to be x rayed sorry bad typing

  • Oh Shelly I so sympathise with you, I to have gum issues, and also had a tooth removed, false, all due to smoking!!!! My fault

    Smoking was your resolve when upsetting situations arise, but really smoking did not do anything for you. This moment will pass, and I,ve said before having a e-cig is not the end of the world, believe me not many people quit ct.

    Your holding tight, have come so far, with all these external situations flying your way. I say a massive congratulations. You are doing amazing.

  • I sympathise too Shelly mummy, it's like there is nowhere to hide emotionally when you don't smoke. Even though it feels like a fag would help this situation it actually wouldn't. You would feel like you do PLUS really pissed off with yourself.

    I agree with Tracey on the e cig, use it when you need it - I've got patches too which I find helpful - I feel supported and protected when I've got it on. Pretty much anything that gets you through the night in first part of your quit is better than smoking.

    you have nearly done a week! You never dreamed you could that - keep reminding yourself how brilliantly you have done. xxxx

    and keep posting on here too

  • Ouch! Absolutely hate going to the dentist too! Let's hope your teeth can be saved, I would get a second opinion just to be sure :) x massive well done on not smoking. I ate for England and shouted a lot in the eArly days. You can get to that place when you wake up and forget you were ever a smoker, and I promise if you keep going it really isn't too far away. With each little milestone, get yourself a treat. I bought a lovely handbag for my end of the month treat a week early. The lovely thing about handbags is thT they don't care how many cakes you eat :) x

  • Oh Shelly that's horrid for you. But look how well you did - no cigarettes even though you were super-stressed. That's a win, you know. I'm with Caroline, little treats and self congratulations really help...You're doing brilliantly, really you are.

    Onwards and upwards - if you can face down the dentist without fags, you can do ANYthing as far as I can tell! xx

  • Morning Shelly' hoping to day is as good as it can be for you.

    Keep us updated

  • We are so conditioned to believe a cigarette solves everything when it actually causes more stress because we feel guilty about smoking. We have to retrain our brains into believing that smoking doesn't solve anything. I can now get through stressful situations without wanting to reach out for a cig and it's only been just over 6 weeks since I quit, so just hang on in there it really is doable.

  • Well today I had the dentist as a filling fell out, I hate the dentist ever since I had to have 4 teeth removed when I was only 17 due to gum disease and was given false one 😓 anyhow I made it there without a cigarette hoping and praying, to be stayed and told the whole left side of my top teeth have roots that have crumbled, again mainly due to gum disease but by no way helped with smoking. I'm back tomorrow where he is going to try and save them with root canal and filling but he's not holding much hope.

    I was/am obviously devastated and came out absolutely screaming at hubby for a cigarette (silly really seeing as their partly to blame) I was in meltdown mode and in the end hubby got me a vapour one with 4mg nicotine and I caved in and I had it, I felt no better still don't and still just want to smoke and sulk but I'm trying to be strong and hold off only 30 minutes left and the local shop is shut and I'd have to travel 35min to buy some.

    I know it won't help and I know their why I'm here so to speak, but why is it they seem so tempting when we're down 😢😢😢

    I had been smoking for over 40 years, not even thinkng that I would have a near fatal heart attack, then three days in hospital turned my life around.

    My nose is so sensitive that I can smell a ciggie at 50 metres, thats the down side, you tend to gain a "Bionic " nose. That was a year and a half ago, "Love your body and Love Life".

  • Hi Shelly, how's lfe treating you, re dentist ect?

  • Hi thank you for asking Dentist filled 5 teeth but their still hurting so thinking im going to have to have them out sooner rather than later :-( have also fell of the wagon due to the depression stupid really as smoking caused this but its left me feeling I've left it too late, I brought some tobacco yesterday and had a roll up but then drowned the rest and threw it away but again brought some this morning and have had 2 trying to summon the courage to throw away again feel like crap so spending the day reading reading and reading about not smoking to try and refrain my right mind rather than the F@:* it one that seems to be on at the minute :-(

  • Oh my word Shelly, I'm only surprised you have not smoked a hundred or so, with all that's happening, my dentist is 20 miles from where I live so understand what your saying, again got a appointment to have another large filling near the front, again all due to smoking.

    I so hope you find the strength to try again, when the world feels bad, I truly realise why we say fick it.

    Please keep us updated

    Take care Shelly

  • Thank you xx I haven't been for over 3 years so all my own fault really but im just so scared of them but now that seems silly as this could probably have been prevented but no point wishing back we all would love to turn back time (especially to the time before we smoked and knowing what we do now) I will defiantly give it another go just disappointed in myself for throwing a week away and for nothing I KNOW its not helping I just need to find peace with the fact im a gummy bear :-)

  • Well this is it im off again Patch is back on have kicked myself up the arse and must be positive I can do this I can do this keep repeating and praying im not too late teeth and a small price compared with what my mind says I've done to myself, so heres hoping. praying and reaching out to all and everyone that I will succeed

  • Indeed I,m crossing fingers and toes (not toes ouch) broke one.

    Re the patch Shelly I suffered quite vivid dreams , so I removed around eghtish, and had half a lozenge if I needed. You may not,have dreams.

    So so pleased you back on the wagon so to speak, little by little, hour by hour.

    You can quit you surely can if you believe.

    Just keep going . Look forward to your updates

  • Thank you and yes I must say falling off the wagon helped a bit as I felt terrible I couldn't do it my kids deserve more and made me more determined to do it, my cravings now are getting the response more of nope you won't win rather than the pitying I want to smoke that I was giving them, each step is a step closer I belief it's learning what not to do each time I will win this fight xxx

  • Oh and sorry to hear about the toe :-( hope it isn't giving you too much trouble good excuse to put your feet up and let others spoil youxxx

  • Shellymmmy - just catching p. Well done for trying again - you sond more positive this time which is GREAT :)

    Every failed attempt is valuable and teaches s something for the next try - keep it up!

    PS excse the typos - sticky uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu key!

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