Ok so it's now day 40.....it's 5:45 pm I'm sat in pjs haven't even washed my face today..... I feel totally down.... I'm already on antidepressants so I don't need to see GP.... I dunno maybe there really are some people that just can't stay quit? God knows I've tried I really and truly have but in the pst two years of quitting and smoking I've put on over 2 stone.... When I am quit I never get the burst of energy to go out exercising I lose all motivation and just go into myself... This happens every time... Sometimes at 8 weeks, the best being at 11 weeks and now this time nearly at 6 weeks a.though I am cold turkey which is a first and maybe why the symptoms are coming out earlier?
With the best will in the world I simply cannot keep putting myself through this misery.... It's not even that I am pining for a fag I'm just empty and lost.... Is there anyone who is on anti depressants or suffers with anxiety and depression that's made it to a year? I need some hope here dos I'm spiralling into a deep depression.........
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Addiction is an insidious thing, your addicted brain knows how to hook you back in. Smoking won't sort it out, all you'll do is have to start again and have to run the gauntlet of the 1st couple of weeks again. We have a choice, smoking is a choice, if you choose to go back to smoking you will still want to quit and will just have to repeat this time again. Stay strong and do whatever it takes but don't give in. Depression is sometimes a symptom of quitting and it makes it more difficult but it does improve.
Last week I was knocked for 6 by the kind of tragic shock life sometimes throws at you, at no point did the thought of smoking enter my mind. I know that is where you and everyone else wants to get to and the only way to do that is by not smoking, not putting that ciggy in your mouth, not lighting it not sucking that wretched smoke into your lungs.
Day 40 is awesome, focus on how well you are doing, get stubborn, don't let the addiction beat you.
It really is horrible for you at the moment. You've not been CT for long and I'm guessing that is why you are getting the symptoms now. I'd follow Tracey's advice and get some NRT into your system as that is much better than smoking again. Be kind to yourself, what you are doing is massive. Many folk don't ever give up and puff their way through pregnancies, cancer and COPD, people even have legs amputated! For some of us it is really hard.
I pm'd someone once as they were observing how some people sail through their quits, and I replied, 'well, they can't be real smokers.....' because for me it has been such a struggle. I have also put on 2 stone in a short time, I look like Mrs Wobbly pants naked, kinda jiggle when I walk.
Have a chat with your GP, they might come up with something to help with withdrawal and depression. I have never suffered with my mental health but this quitting business made me feel out of control ( like being a pre menstral teenager) at about week 3-4 CT.
Off to bed yet again.... It's the only way..... Please God let this get better soon :(....... Thanks again for your kind words everyone, I am still smoke free and intend to stay that way but I need this depression to lift soon because it's getting worse and worse.... Xxx
My heart goes out to you Donna. I really want you to come through this. Although i haven't been quit for a year, only 4 weeks, I am taking antidepressants, and I fid get my prescription changed because the first one I was given made no difference. The one I am taking now does help a good deal. Would your GP be sympathetic? Surely if they know you've quit smoking they could help you change to a different prescription?
I'll probably get shot down in flames. but I'm going to write it anyway. Because I feel your pain.
I haven't had a cigarette for 3 years as of 1st June this year. Not one cigarette. To date. (I smoked for 48 years).
However, two years into my quit (like two whole years without nicotine) I encountered the kind of "down" (understatement or what) that you are going through now
If you have stuff going on in your life that is difficult to deal with, no amount of rhetoric about how good it is to give up smoking is going to help. Because of horrible things happening to loved members of my family I would have smoked, then, at that moment. My partner's tobacco was readily available. I knew it would bring me relief. Contraversial or what.
But, not wanting to smoke burning leaves and inhale poisons I bought a vaporiser. I personally believe that the professionals with their machine of cessation clinics etc don't give enough thought/recognition/acceptance to the effect on the mental wellbeing of it's clients/users or what ever we're called now. I hope to not be a vaper one day. But I know for sure that without it, I woule be a smoker again.
Your choice. Your life. Wishing you peace Donna. x
48 years having nicotine as a crutch is hard to ignore, its far better (or far less bad) to vape than to smoke but its still being beholden to the addiction. I too hope that one day you'll be be vape free but if it comes down to a choice of vape or smoke then you've chosen the lesser of 2 evils. That said, it didn't (couldn't) alter the situation which was causing you the stress.
It's just so horrid, for you Donna, please have a little trip to doctors your meds might not be right for you?
And you have a good cry, let it all out.
I know you can't see it Donna, but time will pass, with better times ahead maybe write a little letter to your self saying how you feel, I often do that and it so helps me.
Sending love your way, truly wishing you a better day
Morning Donna, I so feel for you, depression is so nasty. I do think Tracey's right, it's worth going to the Dr in case your meds are no longer right. Of course, now's the weekend and a bank holiday at that, so in the meantime lean on someone else if you need to/can. Us, a friend, your partner, we're all here.
Hello all, well, walking Betsy did help me at least I had to get dressed to do it! Back home now feeling flat again but I have lots of washing and packing to do for out holiday on Monday, maybe a change of scenery will help? Thanks again you are all lovely and when I get over this hump I will be there for you all too, I'm just sorry I haven't got the energy in me at the moment xxx
Brilliant - I think that getting up and out is about the best (and one of the hardest) thing you can do for yourself when depressed, so massive well done. I'm certain a change of scenery will help - it got me through my first few days, anyway. Well done, you're winning Donna! x
6 weeks today smoke free last night was a night I don't want to repeat had a massive panic attack it really wasn't nice at all, feeling really down today and I'm definitely going to see the doctor as soon as I get back from holiday maybe I need to up my dose or something.... The difference here tho is huge in that when these symptoms have got worse in previous quits I've reached for the cigs but his time I'm not, I'm suffering terribly but I haven't had a fag, people that know me well on here will know that's pretty monumental,
I can't thank you all enough for your support it really does mean so much xxx
Donna although I have not known you as much as others, the fact that you can pass triggers in your life without smoking where you weren't able to before is absolutely fantastic. I hope you are so very proud of yourself for staying on the right path. Everybody here is 100% behind you
I was not around on here on your previous quit/s but I have taken a lot of inspiration from you on this one and i am really pleased that you are still going despite the struggle. This is really great and I hope you really recognise how proud you should feel. One step at a time and positive action like going away and visiting the doctors is great. I know that these positive things are not easy to do when you feel down or anxious but you are doing it so I hope you are rewarded soon with feeling better. I feel sure you will be x
Thanks all, well tomorrow we are off to the Lake District for a mid week break I feel positive the fresh air and change of scenery will do me the world of good, I won't be on the forum as there is literally no signal where we are staying but I promise I will do my utmost to remain smoke free, much love to you all xxxx
Hope the break gives you the lift you need Donna, and well done for pulling through the last couple of days with your quit intact - you can stand tall and proud for that!
Hi I'm new here and I just got don't with a cig.. Started feeling gas pains and chest pains from acid.. I suffer from depression and GERD. I'm just trying to find an outlet or something to help me stop this addiction. I am also 18
Hi jglaus and welcome to the forum. You might want to post in the welcome section.
Have you quit smoking or are you thinking of it?, I wasn't sure from your post. I found it really helpful posting very often on here during the very early days of my quit. I know I wouldn't be as strong now if I did nit do that. Have you seen your gp recently as from what you are saying it seems like a trip is in order
I do hope your feeling better today. I have suffered from depression in the past so I understand what your going through and I am sure you know smoking won't make it better probably the opposite. Hugs and kisses x
Enjoy the Lake District, Donna. Beautiful part of the country. And really well done to keep going over the past few days. It isn't easy at times; NOPE, it certainly isn't
Ah, really good news. Well done. It seems as if it's the Lake District you're missing rather than any nasty stuff. Good for you, and hope you enjoyed with good weather.
Well done that woman. So glad to see you're still smoke free Donna. I've got a good feeling about this. Seems to me your attitude is stronger, no that's the wrong word. You seem more accepting of the fact that there might be some pain involved and if there is. BRING IT ON. Hope i'm reading it right.
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Still feel like $#!+ !!!! 
