not great day...

[nsd_user663_63277]

Ok... Before I get anyone worried I am happy to say I haven't gone anywhere near the smokes still.

So, woke up and felt like crap, I don't think it helped that I went for a run yesterday when I wasn't 100%. I was so full of energy yesterday I think I overdid it so it felt like I was crashing this morning.

I had 2 choices, feel sorry for myself, roll over and go back to sleep (which would have been easy to have done the way I felt)..., or fight with myself and somehow tell my legs to get me out of bed.

After some deliberation I convinced my brain that getting up would definitely be better. In the same way I am dealing with my quit. I am continuously confronted with choices, and although I may feel at the time it is the high road I am taking, one day I will get to the summit and enjoy this penthouse! !!

Today was a hard day(not just what I have shared), but if I can get through today then tomorrow will be a breeze!

[nsd_user663_59644]

And I so know how your feeling, those early days can be oooooh so horrid and make us feel completely pants. But I have very good news for you, it will get better, if quitting smoking was easy, no one would do it, erm would you like a nicotine sweet, erm no thanks. But your showing who's boss, and in my book that's what it takes to keep quit,

I do hope tomorrow is a better day, do what ever you want just get through to day.

Doing great just keep going

[nsd_user663_60964]

Start, that mountain analogy is one I used (being a keen fell walker it resonated with me) and it really is true (read my Penthouse arrival post and you'll get the gist). Before you know it, you'll have surrmounted all the steep, difficult bits and all you will see is an ever-expanding vista along with a summit which will suddenly be within touching distance.

You're holding firm and taking the rough with the smooth and as Kat so wisely says, every day that passes is a day you'll not have to negotiate again. With your mindset you can't but win out in the end.

I really hope tomorrow is a better day for you. I bet it will be.

[Hidden]

Well done for toughing out an obviously yuck day without giving in to temptation - it shows great determination and fortitude in the face of adversity. See, if nothing else, you are proving yourself to be quite the modern day hero!!

I hope that there are no more dragons on your path tomorrow (I fear I may be getting carried away with my metaphor!!).

Take care and be kind to yourself and your poor recovering body.

[nsd_user663_61085]

Hope tomorrow is better for you and well done for remaining in control and focused when it gets tough - you are really setting a fabulous example for those of us just following in your footsteps

Like Kent says - be kind to yourself

M

[Sally6]

Sorry to hear you've had a tough day. You won two battles today, one for getting up, never easy when you feel like that and you also stayed smoke free. Be proud of yourself for this. Take care and as others here have said be kind to yourself. Take it easy with the running too. Hope tomorrow is a good day for you. xx

[nsd_user663_63277]

Thank you everybody (again hic) for all of your kind and very helpful, and experienced words to me. All make total sense and will inspire me further to keep the health at bay and the smoking away!

I decided not to run tonight, a night in could be a few days saved. Tea you are right, my sugar level dropped very quickly 1 time yesterday I remember.

I will finish today on a high, as I am not only one step closer to this top apartment I keep hearing about; I am also more resilient to the bad days swaying me to the dark side. Onwards and upwards!

😊