I'm into month 2! Just

[Glamgoth71]

I am here but not sure how.

I am still craving daily - when will it stop. Stubbornness is probably keeping me quit. Just into my second month, Iv put on 10lb but am careful with what I eat, or so I thought.

Feeling down right now

[nsd_user663_60661]

I am here but not sure how.

I am still craving daily - when will it stop. Stubbornness is probably keeping me quit. Just into my second month, Iv put on 10lb but am careful with what I eat, or so I thought.

Feeling down right now

Hey Glamgoth

You are just a couple of days ahead of me and recently I have been having a bit of a hard time and craving aswell. Maybe it's common around the 1 month mark?

Let's just keep going, focus on the positives, think of the money.

Try and remember how awful we felt while smoking and how much we desperately wished we could stop. Now we have!

If we smoke now, all we will feel is dissapointment.

I found this post by kat73 really useful.

Originally Posted by Kat73

Stop and think about it Val, why do you want to smoke?

Are the cigarettes actually any more attractive now than they were a week ago? Are they any less dangerous? Any less expensive? Any less smelly? Any less poisonous? Are they going to affect your life in any positive way? Will your health benefit? Will your finances? Your personal relationships? Will you be proud of yourself for returning to life under the smelly thumb? Will your self-esteem improve? Will your skin and hair reap the benefits of your system being once more poisoned by all those noxious chemicals? Will the lingering stench of cigarette smoke give the first impression you want people to have of you?

Somehow your smoker's brain seems to have tricked you into thinking you're missing out on some special treat your colleague is having rather than having succeeded where he has failed. Don't you think he looks at you with pure, unadulterated envy that you have held fast whilst he has crumbled and is back under the stinking yellow thumb of the smelly little oik. He's returned to a life of slavery, satisfying his monster's every demand. Do you really want to join him???

Think about it hon, think long and hard - the one who's being deprived here is your colleague! Deprived of cash, health, freedom, pride - the list is endless!

Stick with it petal, don't throw all your hard work away.

[Glamgoth71]

I thank you both, I really don't know what is going off in my head. I am so proud of myself for quitting, Iv tried so many times.

I'm here, Iv done it.

Yet....

Maybe I expect too much. I have lung disease. Too late to stop now? Not according to my Dr. I was at hospital yesterday for another check up. Another inhaler prescribed. (3 now plus tablets)

All these years dependant on those little sticks. My Nan died of COPD, my mom has it, I was diagnosed 3 years ago they say it runs In The family but smoking is a trigger. Yet still I crave that stick, but do I? I sit here chewing a lolly stick. I no longer know anyone who smokes. What's stopping me going to then24hr garage? Only me. I don't want to go. It's not about money, I never struggled with affording them, I have a good job.

So what is it? My health is buggered already. But I'm not terminal, not yet? The nicotine is out of my system now. So why do I want to light up? I know I wouldn't buy any, but I'm i string enough if offered?

Boredom? 28 years I have relied on them. I am a slave no more. No more standing in the rain. No more needing to carry them everywhere. No more.

42. I want a life. I want to see grandchildren. I want to live.

Iv just typed all the above and I have realised I am free. Crave as much as I have I have not given in. I am free. I thought I enjoyed smoking, but I didn't otherwise why did I try to stop before COPD...

I enjoy stain free teeth, I enjoy not smelling, I enjoy not being alone outside.

[nsd_user663_60964]

Glam,

Not only are you going to do it, you ARE doing it! No one could read your last post without realising that you're one strong determined lady who knows exactly what is what. You've put your first month to bed and believe me, if you continue to look after the hours and days as you are at present the weeks and months will look after themselves.

You'll start to see more of the health benefits soon I'll bet, and I'll also bet you can already see the difference to your hair, skin and teeth (not to mention how lovely you and your clothes smell! :D)

In the meantime, dig deep and when the urge comes upon you I suggest you have some crochet or knitting to hand.

All the best from me and many, many congratulations on your achievement so far.