sneaky crave

[nsd_user663_5037]

couple of hours ago I was feeling pretty confident and all of a sudden I'm chewing gum, biting my nails, short of breath and squeezing a stress ball while thinking of cigarettes

[nsd_user663_62023]

They are so nasty and make you doubt yourself.

Like Deb said go find something to do, quick!

[nsd_user663_5037]

Very strange how the mind works, one moment I'm not considering it and quite pleased with myself, then it's as if I miss it like it's a lost limb. Where's the off switch please...

Anyway already decided I'm not going to have one, just blabbing here to kill some time. Which makes me wonder, what went through my mind when I previously craved and decided I will have one. Well, I'm not very stressed nor out having a drink now, so maybe when it hits at that time it's much more difficult to resist.

[nsd_user663_62023]

That's an interesting point, one of the reasons I think this quit is working for me is this:

One day I was smoking out the back door as normal and I thought I really want a cigarette, despite the fact I was actually smoking. It was as if the nicotine/smoking had stopped working.

It made me realise that smoking causes the craves. Each cigarette makes you want the next one. The crave is there when you're a smoker it's just you relieve the itch regularly.

The craves fade and die. I just need to remember how hard the first few days are so that I never pick up a cigarette again.

[nsd_user663_5037]

well it's a hell of an itch now

[nsd_user663_5037]

didn't someone say it's a couple of minutes and then the crave is gone? Either it's been a long 2 minutes and I've been multi craving

[nsd_user663_5037]

Stomach & mouth fine. Whatever it was it's gone now. Must be my mind, I think I need one and at times when I've gone back to it in the past I either justify it thinking it's an extreme situation or I tell myself I can have one and stop, or I can smoke casually and control it.

I very consciously tried to become a casual smoker some time ago, setting myself rules or how, when, how many, how often etc etc. Managed to keep up this "system" for a while and then of course was back at it regularly.

That's why I'm not keen on the e-cig right away, unless I feel I'm about to smoke anyway then I might as well see if it'll sort me out with a lesser damaging fix.

For now, Day 3 is counting down, and apart from that one "incident" I'd say it's been pretty ok

[nsd_user663_60964]

Well done for holding firm Big

Those curved ball moments are horrible aren't they? The good thing is that they do get gradually further and further between as well as substantially weaker as time passes.

I do think that getting Day 3 done & dusted is a particularly significant moment. Nearly half way through your first week already!

[nsd_user663_5037]

Thanks! I'm off to the day 4 forum now!

[nsd_user663_59644]

I love those stress balls!! your showing true grit, hang in there, doing great