Well I've had a pretty grotty couple of days - hence my vanishing act and it felt really odd!!
Woke up on Tuesday morning feeling a bit pooey and grumpy (ended up biting my poor dad's head off :() couldn't get on here so when the crave kicked in there was nowhere to call for help - can't bug people face to face about it!!
Anyway it got a hold, and my positivity went AWOL, the *insert word nice girls like me don't use here* and I ended up massively craving a smoke.
Like before it wasn't that I thought it would be nice, the sensible bit of me knew perfectly well it wouldn't be, and that it wouldn't be one ciggie then back on with it, but I'd be full time smoking again - that thought did keep me off them thank flip!! It was just that I got sick to death of a constant toddler throwing a wobbler in my brain :confused:
Yesterday was worse, ended up heading off to beg a cigarette because I was desperate, and was seriously thinking about failing. Was strong enough to divert from the next office to the loo instead and had a good bawl - waterproof mascare totally isn't by the way.
Luckily, I got a load of messages on my Yahoo (YAY for iPhones!!) saying that there was a search party out, and I got a load of support from some lovely people. <3
So today, my quit is still on I haven't smoked :cool: and although I am still craving, it is nowhere near as bad as it was yesterday!!
I suppose it's a good warning for me really, had been poleing along nicely with no major trouble or craves for ages so I guess it made me overconfident and Nic does love a good surprise attack :eek:
So for now, it's back to "I won't smoke for the next hour" and carrying on!!