Well it's officially the start of month 3 and not really sure how I'm feeeling. Glad to be not smoking obviously.
I went into a shop today where people were smoking outside and the smell was disgusting and i was really pleased to feel that way. In previous attempts to quit I'd have been following them up the street to inhale just a little.
So why have i got doubts?
The urge to smoke is still there, the reward cigarettes are the ones when i get a crave, when a horrible job is done, the one in the car after leaving work. I'm still taking NRT though a lower dose now and they don't work in these situations so it's in my mind and I don't understand why.
I feel bored of the whole thing. Does that make sense? Bored of the triggers/cravings and the relentless of it. I don't think about it all the time but I'm getting bored and fed up of it intruding into my life.
I don't feel the joy of 'yeah that's when I used to smoke and I don't have to do that anymore'
Off to bed and hopefully things will be brighter in the morning.