4 months i think.

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I'm just about stepping into my 4th month i think. I quit on 1st nov. I'm still using patches and an inhalator which i rarely fill with nicotine cartridge, its there as a crutch a walking aid on this road , not a crutch more of a compass.. It helps... Busy applying to Art colleges up and down the country, its very stressfull. have an interview in The capital nxt weds. Its all change .what started as quitting smoking has turned into a full on set of life changes and letting go of what no longer serves my well being. the desire to smoke occasionally sweeps over me when its all feeling overwhelming. One thing that smoking was used for by me was as a punctuation mark . a reward.... I've been close to buying into one would be nice 2 would be better and sod it I will smoke cos i deserve a vice , a break from this hard slog.... but so far i havnt caved and theres no regret for those lovely perfect smokes that i was wanting but didnt have. The thoughts come and its up to me wether or not I buy into them . One day at a time is how i'm keeping it. I'm also avoiding smokers cos i've built a fantasy where they look so content and complete. some of em stink and one of them who looked like a very content smoker says she wishes she could stop and get rid of the hacking smokers cough . good to be reminded that i no longer have that...

Mx

[nsd_user663_54332]

You're doing great there mash, really getting a lot of time under your belt now! Don't avoid those smokers hon, you need to dispel that myth of "perfect smokes" and let's be honest here, we all of us have memories of those. The only way to get rid of that is to spend your day looking for smokers stood outside offices, restaurants, bars, hotels, in the cold and the rain, shivering and puffing away, so they can satisfy the monster that's screaming in their head. That should help break down the idea that we smoke for any reason other than we're addicted - after all, does it LOOK like they're enjoying it?

Exactly!!

If people only smoked 'cos they liked it, they'd not smoke when they didn't want to - all the rest is shutting up that craving.

One of my strongest smoking memories is talking to someone a week or so before I quit, and all that was going through my head was "bugger off I want a smoke" and that is *not* what I'm like, it's horrible but this craving was like a toddler in a supermarket.

It's no way worth smoking 10, 20, 30 fags a day, every day and spending all that cash for the one or two fags you may enjoy smoking.

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You are doing great Mash and there are some wise words in the posts above.

I remember the early days when it is all consuming. I felt as thought I was in mourning and definitely felt I was missing out. Well we are missing nothing, nothing at all.

Do treat yourself and remember the reasons why you are here and quitting in the first place

WELL DONE!!!

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Cheers folks your right all of u. I know when i smoked I only ever wanted to stop. dont know why I even thought a 40+ year addiction would be easy to just walk away from. There were golden moments but 99.99% of the time I was being nowt but a moron. Nowadays I spend most of my time not smoking and only occasionally entertain the thought.. Was i happy then? probably not . Its just that nowadays I experience a lot of discontent and uhappiness. But i think i used to beleive smoking could make me happy . Im just rambling... Not smoking is what i chose so i will just get on with it . I need to shut up and drive

[nsd_user663_56673]

Well done Mash now get your ass in room 4/5

[nsd_user663_61377]

Look at you go Mash. I quit Oct.18th so we're more or less the same. Hadn't realized I was actually into my 4th month, like you are. Is'nt it funny the way the weeks go by we lose track of the day counts. Or now when walking along the street, I can pick up on that whiff a mile away and if someone is smoking as they walk along in front of me, I have to cross the street or else move out of their 'wafting' range cause the smell is just vile! Cannot believe I once smelled like that and didnt even get it. No amount of CK will mask it!

No idea where all the money I used to spend on a pack a day habit is. Sure isnt sitting in my bank account anyway, but I have managed to perhaps buy things I would not have been able to do had I not decided to quit.

Right, better migrate to the Month 4/5 Room before I outwear my welcome in this section. Hee hee. See you there

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Glad u like it sir will move my butt into month 4 then Tara month 3 tara Dirty smelly Nick. the tide is high and im moving on.