Well here we go, here is my epic list of reasons to give up smoking.
It will kill me
I have 2 children who want me to stop smoking
My husband wants to me stop, he has a friend that lost his wife to cancer and it scares him
I will save £2657 per year (£7.30 for 20 pack every day)
£2500 would clear my debts - no brainer!
I'm ashamed of the smell on my clothes
I change clothes about 3 times a day and dump my coat soon as I'm anywhere because of the smell
Smelly breath - yuck!
I have a cough for the first time ever and it won't go away, must be nearly 2 months now
I have to stand outside to smoke - it's cold out there!
I hate it when people find out I smoke and give me That Look
My tastebuds are dying - and I reeeally love food!
My skin would look brighter if I didn't smoke
I would have in the region of £50 per week to go directly on either paying debts or for treats I could never otherwise afford.
I won't have to panic anymore about the teacher thinking I'm smelly at parents evening
I won't be out of breath so often
I will be able to exercise as I won't ruin it all with a fag afterwards, I'l be able to afford the activites and I won't be as out of breath. Eventually I'll be fit enough to keep up with a class without embarrassing myself.
I'm a Nail Artist so spend my working time *very* close to people, I have to work really hard at making sure I don't smell of smoke in front of my clients and would be mortified if they were put off by it.
I won't feel like The Dirty Smoker when I go out with non smokers
I won't have to go outside every 20-30 minutes while out for a drink, meaning I won't miss half the night standing in the stinky smokers pen while my non smoking friends have fun dancing and smelling of Chanel.
I won't get a constant nagging feeling that I'm missing something
I won't be able to use smoking as a reason for procrastinating ALL the time 'I'll just have this fag, then I'll do the washing up' etc.
I won't have to stand outside getting cold (and letting the neighbours over hear my conversations) every time the phone rings.
I will be excited about going through security at the airport instead of stressed because there's no going back for a quick fag once you're through!
I won't have stained teeth anymore and I can afford the hygienist to get rid of the stains I have
I need to get myself some life and health insurance which i'm sure will be cheaper as a non smoker
I hate myself just a little bit for being a smoker and will always feel like I'm slightly inadequate and not quite deserving of nice things or respect because of it, even though I'm actually pretty ok.
No more yellow tongue from caffeine and smoking binges
No more evil looks from strangers on the street - even when you stand as far away as possible from doorways and other people
I will live longer and maybe be fit enough to enjoy time with some grand children one day
I won't have to clear up the butts from the pile I hide them in every day or feel embarrassed in case the neighbours see them if I haven't cleaned them up for a couple of days.
I have a previous quit diary that I wrote in 2011 and reading it back, it actually wasn't that bad and I was less stressed as a non smoker.
Apparently even my going outside and wearing a coat fully done up even when I don't need to doesn't protect my kids from the effects of passive smoking as it's on my hair etc when they cuddle me.
I'm going to be 30 in a couple of months - I cannot be a smoker after 30 as it will massively increase my health risks
I still have a chance of reducing the damage I've done to myself if I give up now
I'm going to NYC on 2nd March - I do not want to be stopping between sight seeing and epic burger eating for fag breaks, there is too much to see and do and from what I've heard it's even less acceptable there than it is here.
I need shopping money for Macy's!!
I need to focus more on making the most of my time at home with the kids and not being away from them because I'm smoking.
The Fear - you know when you have a few left in the pack and it's late/raining/the kids are in bed and it's hard to get to the shop