Happy Saturday peeps
"The weekend comes, the cycle hums, ready to race to you"
As I write this, I am: 4 days 21 hours and 13 minutes smoke-free.
This is the first time I've included the minutes in my diary, and with
good reason: at times today I have been reduced to monitoring my
quit on a minute-by-minute basis!
I wondered yesterday whether the relative freedom of the weekend
would test my mettle, and the answer has been yes...but I've also
discovered that my mettle is actually stronger than I thought :cool:
I picture it like this...
On day one, I built a 10-foot wall around the nic-demon, hoping it
would be tall enough to keep him out. It was: but only just. And
just as well, because building 10-foot walls is exhausting!
Every subsequent day, the nic-demon has been trying to find ways
to climb over the wall...pole vaulting, making a ladder etc...BUT...
...I haven't had to rebuild the wall every day, just add a few
more bricks on top.
Some days, like today, the nic-demon finds a new way to get over
the wall. Today he found a damn trampoline...
...and I had to add another 3-feet to the wall PLUS some barbed wire
to keep him out. And all the while he was bouncing up and down
But each day, the wall gets bigger and stronger, and the nic-demon
finds it harder and harder to get over it. Sure, he'll find a jet-pack
soon, but I'm getting fitter...which means I can build the wall quicker.
Blah blah. What a rubbish analogy, looool
"Saturday, what a day, groovin' all week with you"
I have resisted the urge to over compensate with extra NRT (Mist
Spray), and have in fact only had one spray so far today. This WILL
increase later, as I fully intend to test my "booze resistance" to the
max this evening.
I'm very grateful to mrs__steve__ who has been a total rock of
encouragement since the first minute. I'm pretty sure I haven't
been overly snappy, but it's still a stressful time for our friends and
loved ones. I'll be the first to admit I've been totally wrapped up in
my battle with the nic-demon this week. Sometimes in life you need
to be utterly selfish, but it doesn't mean you don't appreciate the
help and support of others. Quite the opposite in fact!
"These days are ours, happy and free. Oh happy days"
Keep on keeping on, everyone