I've been absent for a reason.....
Got to day 203 and couldn't stand the battle in my head anymore !
So I bought 10 then panicked and waited 4 hours and then lit one and I couldn't even smoke it, it burnt my throat and lungs so bad.
Then I got depressed because now I'm thinking I can't even smoke now if I wanted to ! So had another go ! That packet lasted 7 days and today I've bought another 10 and smoked 5 !
So I'm completely done in now
I hate it but so relieved of the constant craves that was driving me insane.
I've become a secret smoker but now I've confessed I know I am not going to smoke no more. I STINK AND MY THROAT HURTS ! Gums are sore where I've brushed them so much grrrr....
Can't get the stench out of my nostrils it is horrid !
So....back to day one ! it's weird you know because I wanted to post and confess when Kyle was on here..we more or less had out 6 month plus quits together.
My heart went out to him it really did. So
NOW THIS QUIT IS MY DECISION AND NOT MY PARTNER... and I shall do it again