Oh dear - Back Again

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Well I'm back again (if you'll have me) after yet another failed attempt at quitting this awful smoking habit that's ruled my life for almost 30 years.

I've made up my mind that I want to go into 2014 as an ex/non smoker so I'm giving myself the rest of this year to adjust to my quit. It's up to me I know to get on with it without letting myself down any more so I'm going Cold Turkey and hoping that my willpower will support me.

Well here I go, Day 1 starts again for me .................

Linda

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Thanks Max and I agree with absolutely everything you say.

I can't mess about any more so I will give it 100% this time.

No looking back, just forwards from now on.

Linda

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Hi Karri, good to see you here.

Thanks for pointing my first mistake out, no doubt it will just be the first of many for me but I'll go in and change that right now.

How are you doing?

Linda

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That's good to hear Karri, we can keep each other going.

I actually feel quite positive this time - I know 'famous last words' but I'm really sick of smoking and everything about it. The shame is that in the past I've always ended up finding pathetic reasons to go back to it and then wishing I hadn't. I can't let it have a hold over me anymore and that's before I start thinking about all the damage it causes.

I'm now in the position where I'm almost the only one out of my friends and family who's still smoking and it's made me really think about what I'm doing and why I'm still doing it. Sometimes I feel like a social leper so I tend not to smoke at all when I'm out and about. I don't smoke in the house so I end up out in all weathers alone in the back garden - ridiculous really because there's no pleasure in that. Yesterday I found myself puffing furiously away out there and wishing I had finished just so that I could get back in the warm. I think that was what finally made me see sense and sum up why I have to quit.

I know there will be times when I'm going to be tempted back but I'm going to say 'No' this time.

Linda