So, 17 november 2013
Already posted on reasons what goes in my mind
Threw everything away, it's 17:52
This is maybe my 8th attempt in the last two months.
Today I feasted with 18 espressos and X cigarettes.
I already miss the neurotrasmittorial orgasm from all of this ****.
From tomorrow I'll be a masochist and ****ing hate myself all the time and hate the world because I really love to drink coffee and smoke cigarettes and I would pass my whole life doing just that.
I will make this website my home and post every single **** that comes to my mind while I walk into the very depths of hell.
In ten years I've been living my life inserting nicotine in my body like a coin into a vending machine.
I already want a smoke but I smoked my last one like 15 minutes ago. And this is just the beginning.
I already imagine my brain when tomorrow at 3:00 pm it's gonna be saying **** like: COME ON DUDE, YOU CAN SMOKE ONE, YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU LIKE IT. YOU ARE REALLY A RETARDED BECAUSE YOU CANNOT CONTROL YOUR IMPULSES. LOOK AT ALL THOSE PEOPLE WHO SMOKE ONLY OCCASIONALLY. YOU CAN DO THAT TOO, MATE, COME ON, DON'T BE TOO HARSH ON YOURSELF, YOU ARE NOT LOVING YOURSELF ENOUGH IF YOU DON'T DO THAT. AND ANYWAY THIS **** IS SOMETHING THAT YOU CANNOT GO COLDTURKEY SO STRONGLY ON, YOU REALLY DAMAGE YOURSELF, YOU ARE NOT RESPECTING YOURSELF DUDE, COME ON, GO BUY IT, SMOKE ONE AND THEN STORE IT SOMEWHERE. YOU KNOW YOU ARE GONNA ****ING LOVE IT, YOU'D PREFER SMOKING A CIGARETTE RIGHT NOW THAN HAVE SOME HOT WARM SEX WITH A SMOKING HOTTIE WHO LUSTS AFTER YOU. COME ON DUDE, GO SMOKE.
And then I'm gonna come on this website and act like a little bitch and write everything that comes into my mind and how I hate myself and how I only want to have a coffee and light up a fag.