Not so goo now....

[nsd_user663_4025]

Well on day 10 now and after my optimism about the last week and especially the weekend being relatively easy, today I am not doing very good......argued with my OH, people are p****g me off at work, I have a really short fuse and don't know what to do with myself. I have eaten, although I am trying to be good, so the food is boring, I have drank, although I am trying to cut down on Diet Coke so I am full of peppermint tea and water but there is a niggling feeling....I don't want to have a cigarette, but.....also my OH is away for two nights and that usually means a few drinks at night with too many cigarettes, so I have this at the back of my mind, I know that I should distract myself but I don't fancy cooking or ironing, cleaning or tidying up but will have to make a plan....still have the inhalator, minis and e-cig that I haven't touched so I have a back up but that devil is whispering 'get a small pack and have a few, nobody will know' hate it!!!!!! Sorry for the long rambling and miserable post........

[nsd_user663_31349]

is there a film at the cinema you want to see? a non smoking friend who you can catch up with? day 10 is so good! dont throw it away. You will know if you have one and it wont feel good.

[nsd_user663_59305]

Marta, stop - reread your post and then have a word with yourself ! You are allowing the Nicdemon into your head and right at this moment he is setting you up for a fail. Go back to days 1-3 and think how tough it was then, it is getting easier, isn't it? Draw strength from how far you've come, rememeber, people at work pee'd you off when you smoked, you argued with the OH when you smoked, so why is it any different because you're keeping off the ciggies? Have you any family or friends you can hang out with whilst the OH is away, perhaps have a really nice girlie pamper session, it's pretty hard to smoke when you have a clay masque on your face and drying polish on your nails. Do something nice that you wouldn't normally have time for, after all, you deserve a treat - But whatever you do, don't let that demon back in

[nsd_user663_56237]

Hi Marta,

The best thing you can do in these situations is to come online and post, which is exactly what you have done Take some deep breaths and have a nice glass of water and, like Jen said, re-read your post through.

Also you have google at your fingertips and, while it isn't really pleasant, you can easily find videos, blogs and photographs about smoking and the side effects. These will really help just to calm you down and get nasty Nic out of your head.

The longer you let him stay, the further he'll dig his little heels in. Kick him out!! xxx

[nsd_user663_27255]

Hi Marta,

Please please don't give In like me, it's awful being back to day 1 and going through it all again knowing I could be where you are now!

Be proud of what you've achieved, I admire you for it!

I know the feeling your talking about, that empty insecure feeling of wanting something. Sounds like a good night god a treat night, nice takeaway, tv all to yourself or maybe a nice long bath and an early night??

I just bought a kids crochet kit, apparently it's good for beginners lol hopefully it will keep me occupied and out of the biscuit cupboard hehehe

Keep us posted and come on here whenever you need to, I'm normally always lurking about

[nsd_user663_4025]

Calmish after the storm

Thanks for all your messages, all so true in very different ways, really appreciate it! I re read my post, and most of the answers were there but I was so blinded by the feeling of anger and frustration that I could not see it! Tried to keep busy, had to renew car insurance and change energy providers, that was a no starter, left hanging on for ever, so made me more angry so I hang up!

Decided to have wine, knowing that was a big trigger, go e cigs out but had three drags but hated it, hurted my throat, that made me so happy, can drink without smoking, massive step...... Unfortunately that might also mean that I have a drinking problem, used to blame smoking, oh well one thing at a time! And I haven't smoked, 10 days completed.

In answer to ur questions, cannot go out, alone with kids, so have 2 stay in and no family around

Thanks again, you are all ace! Xxx

[nsd_user663_60318]

Hi, well done for getting thru today, feeling the same as you today, but know that even a puff will lead to a packet:mad:, been there to many times before.

Again well done, and hope that tomorrow is better