I rarely post now but wanted to post this for anybody about to or currently going through a stressful situation, in the hope at least you will realise your situation is probably not as bad as mine
I quit in September last year and since then :
My youngest son 5 has been admitted to hospital twice for viral induced wheeze
My dad was admitted to hospital 2 days before Hogmanay with pneumonia
I have been at risk of redundancy twice
Last night in a surprise news my mum (age 60) was found dead.
I will not smoke, when it is my time I would rather die not a junkie that a junkie. At first these things took me by surprise and I craved badly... Now I am a tower of strength... I will win this war.
I am not looking to get any sympathy... I am looking to help strengthen anybody else hitting a stressful patch. Smoking or not from me everybody is now fine with the exception of my mum.. Who I now must bury, way too early and largely related to being a junkie... A path I choose not to travel...
Keep not smoking folks.
Paul
Paul, I don't know what to say but I admire your integrity and resolve a true strength in character - there is no going back. My thoughts are with you x